how do you get over an abusive relationship?

i got out of an abusive relationship like 5 months ago...he slammed me up against doors and walls and pushed me around screamed at me he said he was going to do things to me that my mom wouldnt recognise me after he was done with me....when or if they found my body...he always told me who to hang out with what to where....when he told me to jump i was supposed to be like how high? i was so scared of him...i wanted to get away...while we were together and i was going through all of this i fell in love with someone...i didnt mean to...it happened..so we figured out we both had feelings for each other...well this other guy was out drinking going to amish parties lettin gurls hang on him and grind on him...for all i kno guys were too because he turned out to be straight as wet noodles...he was bysexual...i didnt want to be around him....i was faithful i was angry when i found out about him and that gurl...i was hurt but he didnt care still everytime he saw me he left a bruise on me he punched me....he tried to take advantage of me once in his house with his mom home i told him if he didnt let me up i would scream....i got away..then he found out that i didnt love him i loved someone else he was angry and said he would kill this guy right in front of me and then he would slowly torture me and make me wish i was dead and do everything he could to me then he would kill me...he was 6ft 3 200+lbs...im 5ft 4 and 128lbs...i didnt stand a chance....another problem he lived right by me and knew where i slept..well one day he got in a bad wreck he was driving and got hit on the driver side he was lucky he survived he broke his back...then he still abused me....so one day when he was crying for me to love him and keep him forever i said no....he called me everything in the book and the c word us females hate so i hung up the phone he called back said it was over and i told him"if you havent noticed already we have been for awhile" im still with the guy he said he would kill and were happy only sometimes if he moves too quickly or something i flinch even if he stretches out his arms to give me a hug or kiss....im afraid....still...but i kno my love wouldnt hit me its just i dunno i dont understand what is wrong with me what do i do???

most people would suggest a shrink but I personally would suggest TFT (thought field therapy) it uses acupuncture to rebalance the mind:D that is clearly worth a shot unless I suggest just trying to trust your bf bit by bit and make him take it easy. I can help you if you want!

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thankyou....i already see a therapist she dont help...i do trust my boyfriend but like everytime he raises his arms or moves suddenly i flinch or jump and i dont wanna push him away...thanks ill add you mine is ashleyweb_l6@hotmail.com by the way that is a lowecase L not a 1