plz help me..she's dying

ok...lately i've been wondering how much longer my Mema will b with us...and i-...i juz don't want her 2 go....i've spent like evry moment of my life with her and i juz have the feeling tht i'm goin 2 cut myself like really bad when she dies cuz i cut myself alot when my uncle died last spring break...and i'm afraid tht i'm goin 2 shut down my emotions like a friend did when her g-ma died...i don't know wut 2 do...and in the past few months...alot of stuff has happened and i don't know if i can take much more...so plz help me...i don't wanna do sumthing tht i'll regret.

i used to be a cutter ya need to think of the future and what ur lil kids will say what are those? think of all the scars that it leaaves its bad enough with the scars that are permenant that noone can see like the ones in your heart it just draws attention and if you are a cutter just think what would ur mema think of you doing that and how dissapointed she would be in you its bad enough when you feel like a dissapointment but it really makes you one when you dissapoint ur loved ones like that....

be strong. people thinking of suicide tend to not think of how much they will hurt the others around themselves if they did it..they only think of escaping their lives. I know, because I was(not so long ago, about 3 months) very suicidal(due to being sexually molested every day by my father and beaten) but I am still here today because even though I lost my best friend to suicide in july, I felt I feel I need to be strong for her now, and not follow that path. I got myself out of the situation(thank you police officers and CPS) and I am living on my own now. So yes, I agree with the above post, think of the future. I honestly saw myself being in the same situation for 4 MORE years, but I am not anymore. You'll be just fine, if you ever need to talk. Feel free to message/e-mail me