All cutting posts, this is the thread #2

i haven't done it for about 2 weeks. but i get the urge to cut every so often. i have found from experience that cutting will only help me. writting, cutting up paper, snapping a rubber band, all those things don't work for me. it makes me want to even more. and now because i cut, my best friend does too. she always wanted to know y i did it, i always said it was a kind of release. now she is doing it and saying that too. i don't know what to do about it. she has a few scars already, i don't want her legs and arms to start looking scared like mine. it'sonly since that i have been seeing my counsellor that i noticed that she was doing exactly what i did and that maybe if i stop she might aswell. but sumtimes i just want to cut myself so bad i go insane. it's really hard to stop once u have become a cutter.

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this sounds horrible but i need adives. . .i've gone back to cutting and well i've tried knifes,razors and glass over the years but i want something more sharper does anone have any ideas

^Is it right to support someone with ideas? I mean I could say something that really does work wonderfully...but I don't want to feel responsible for a trip to the ER.

i'm going there anyway i've been there and done that for over doesing on such but i really do need to cut. . .or i guess my urge is takign over again but if you don't want to give me adives thats fine but i'm hurting myself more trying to cut with something blunt. . .

^ sorry for all of this i'm just really messed right now

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No that it will make you and your life a better person/place.
Stay strong and realize going there is helping you, not hurting you.
And don't be mad at anyone who sent you; they're just trying to help and they've obviously ran out of alternitives.
Stay strong.x

xTheEcstasyOfSuicidex

I did not know there was more spam!.

Uck.

"Is it right for a mother to cut... my kids never know but it makes it 100 time worse.... i looked through theses before i wrote this and i saw i had written in the topic twice.... once while pregnant once while not.... it hurt... and my arm is hurting to... just because im a mom i still need to cut... but it is worse right?"

No it is completely wrong for you to cut. Most mothers go through hard times, life is not easy for anyone, but you need to get some sort of assistance. If you can't take care of yourself, how are you going to be able to take of your children? Cutting is not something you "need" to do, you need to either get help or force yourself to get some sort of positive outlet, now if thats hiring a babysitter and leaving and driving and relaxing for a couple of hours then thats fine, but better to give yourself a little breathing space than to negatively impact yourself and your children.

Omg! bloody tears...i am going though this same thing...

my bf cuts himself and i am afraid that something bad might happen to himself...yes i have cut myself but it makes me so sad to see the cuts on his wrist *tear*

Umm a little help i used to cut and now a friend has commited suicide thats 3 in one year and i dnt kno what to do i cut shallow last night but i can feel myself losing control a few hours ago i got a fone call from a friend who has pills and is gunna take them i calmed her down went over and calmed her down i am now thinking why is this happening to me and what the hell should i do i keep crying and cant stop cause the friend who commited suicide i had a argument with a few days before and ignored her i was a down right b$#^*$ and deserve it but ... god just please anyone??

Some people up near the top of the forum were talking about throwing out all of your cutting tools...but that doesn't work as easily as it sounds. i i have found out (from experience) that if someone really wants to cut themself they will go to great legnths...like using paper clips, mechanical pencils, earings (the sharps backs), and anything else that has a sharp point on it.

^ Thats true...
I dont know but sometimes when i really want to cut, justholding the knife brings a little bit of comfort...
Seriously tehres times when ive just griped the knife without doing anything, just because i feel less panicky.

I do but now i started burnibg lightly at times

"my bf cuts himself and i am afraid that something bad might happen to himself...yes i have cut myself but it makes me so sad to see the cuts on his wrist *tear*"

^ That's heartbreaking... =[ I'm sorry.

Yeah i know.

now..whenever i realy wanna cut. i start doing pushups, so many that my arms almost fall ff...cuz that brings enough pain...plus its healthy!

^ Good thinking & it's a positive outlet. =]

FeelLikeGivingUp,

You would have no idea how many people feel guilty when a friend commits suicide, you go back and think of all the things you could have done to prevent it, how many times you treated them the way you did, what you could have or did say, what you have to realise is that when someone gets to the point where they are going to kill themself in the blink of an eye, they need so much more help than what some words can do...

All you can take from it is how to notice when one of your friends is spirling out of control. You begin to notice the same pattern over and over when you have friends who go through the same pain.

I use to cut for about 3 years I'd say. Depression is something that is mentally wrong with you. In most cases its something that snowballs bigger and bigger until it's uncontrolable. I use to have huge mood swings all the way back in the 4th, 5th, and 6th grade. I'd be having an awesome time, and then all of a sudden I'd be down and not feeling like doing a thing anymore. Since about 7th grade I had cut myself when I figured out a lot of what truly happened when I was younger... My father leaving me at 3 weeks old, my parents physical abuse as I grew up, and all this other stuff that grew and grew until my cutting started to become a problem.

I guess what i'm trying to say is you can't blame yourself for whats wrong with someone else's life. All you can do from that point on is offer help and a listening ear.

*Sit down with them
*Talk to them bout what's going on
*When they're feeling down and really depressed get them outta the house, take them out and do something to get their minds off suicide or cutting.

That's all you can really do.
Sorry I kind of got distracted halfway through my post, and this is gettin kind of long, hope it atleast helped a little bit.

When you want to cut; think why. when you were 13 what was the REASON, and do you just cut everytime life becomes hard now? You need hobbies, distractions, calming things to do, to go out with friends, or get a massage, anything you want to do that takes your mind off the actual thought OF cutting. do you have a boyfriend, or any friends you can tell your problems to, instead of cutting, so on so forthhh. really when you realise you don't NEED the knife to be happy or relieve yourself it'll be a lot easier, you just have to forget THAT option is there, and try others. Don't SQUEEZE icecubes and other things that hurt you, the whole point is to STOP hurting yourself, so if anybody advises that don't do it, watch movies, talk to friends, go for walks, go swimming, go biking, etc etc.
Sorry if this isn't much help but you didn't give many details.
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Sticky means that it stays at the top of the forum list so that everyone can see it.

bloody tears. it seems that me and u have a lot on common. haha. i have been cutting and my friends get really mad. i don't cut my wrist though cuz i don't want anyone to see so i cut the top of my legs and near my ankles. most of the time when my friends ask if i am cuttin...i lie and say no cuz they don't know that i do it on my legs. i have only done my wrist a few times and it was too hard trying to hide it.

I have recently begun to think about cutting... I don't know what takes over me sometimes...I don't feel sympathy, regret, or anything of the sort. I can't explain it, This might sound so cruel, but I defended h*tler in our debate class (only one) and with the VT massacre, i said it was a bunch of hype and ppl made too much of a big deal out of it, and they probably deserved it and laughed the whole thing off, and this guy i was obsessed with completely screwed me over so many times and did horrible things to shatter me purposefully and i just now got over him, and my parents might be getting a divorce, but i dont really care, and my friends talk about me behind my back, nd i am always thinking about ways to do drastic things and large scales, and ppl think im crazy, but i see things that happen, like before they do, all the time, 9-11, the massacre, local s, bad things, etc... but i have tried everything i could like drawing and writing poetry and listening to music and plastering a fake smile on my face, and what is horrible is that i have beome so good at it and i constantly feel hopeless, and unworthy, and i just want a release from all of this, and im constantly pressured to be perfect and this is the first time ive let any of this out as nobody around me would understand....

So, I need some advice, and it would mean a lot if I could get some...

I'm a recovering cutter and I'm really proud that I'm trying to quit, even if I started in the first place, because I know I can't change the past, but I can control the future. Well, my friend started minorly cutting about a month ago, and I warned her that it would get worse and become an addiction...She said she'd stop. She didn't. Now she's addicted and as of now it's not that bad. But I told her that it will get a lot worse. She doesn't believe me though. It's so hard to be helping myself, but watching my best friend get into the same nightmare. I don't know what to say or do to get her to realize how serious this is. I know that she may just have to get through this by herself and at her own pace, but I want to stop her before it completely takes over her life...Does anyone have any advice of what I should do...? I just can't watch her fall into this addiction without trying to help...

I think what you need to sit down with her and seriously talk. It might help if you try to explain to her exactly what you're going through and how hard you find it. If she can see how much pain you've been through then she might not be so keen to do it. Also, if you tell her how much it's worrying you and how much it would hurt you if she kept doing it then she might back off of it. Good Luck.
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I don't know what to do anymore...
my parents made me so mad becuase they said i didn't deserve the guy i like. That i shut everyone out. I cut myself last night and when i told the only person i thought i could trust she told me if im going to cut i should do it on my side becuase no one will see...
who do i run to when i can't trust anyone not even my family?
I'm tired of crying myself to sleep, im tired of writing depressing poetry, I'm tired of listening to sad music all the time...but i don't know how to stop
can anyone help me?

OMG PEOPLE!!!! I HAVE DONE A WONDERFUL THING!!!

I HAVEN'T CUT FOR 7 WEEKS!!! I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!!

Well done, that is so much longer than i have ever lasted, four weeks is my max

Fantastic job! You should be very proud of yourself! ;] Congrats on the accomplishment.

Stephanie Lynn .+.

I never realised how many people feel the way I do!!! It's somewhat comforting (yet disturbing at the same time)

I haven't cut for just over a year now, but I want to SOOOO badly. I've recentl bought myself a nice new shiny knife. At first I convinced myself that it was for protection should I get hijacked (which is a HUGE issue in this country), but I was just lying to myself. It was because I want to stop the pain I'm going through. I wish i still had the strength to hold on, but it's getting harder as my country gets worse (there isn't much left to left for)...

Endlessly in the Dark :'(

Well, I've been cutting since I was 15. it started after I found out that my boyfriend cheated on me with someone I didn't like! Then as time went on it was getting worse. I would cut just to feel, just to know that I could still feel. I got caught when I was 16, but not even that could end it. I was cutting almost everyday. There was no way to stop.

C@

St.Jimmy...i know what your saying...same here except i haven't been cutting that long

oh yeah...for those of you that read about my bf cutting himself and me benig really sad....HE QUIT! i told him that it was really worrying me and he said tha t he really wanted to quit and that he was tired of doing it. YAY!