missin mi past. . .

hay this mite take a bit too expain so if u have time plz read and help me out.....

at the start of 2006 i started a new school my boyfriends old school, and when i went there everyone told me to dump him and after 3 months i got so tired of it so i did... then started hooking up with guys and acting really sluty but ended up with a really nice christian guy from my school and i love him so much and he treated me so right , but i still missed my old bf..and i kept telling him i luved him and he abused me back saying if u luved me u wouldnt of dumped me so i got back with him............

been together 19 months now.... still missing my other boy i left the school 1 week after getting back with him from being hated, never said goodbye to him, and lost my virinity when i wanted to save it... if i never left i think id be alot happier than i am now.....

what should i do :'(

leah xx

Two words: Move On
That's the only thing that you can actually do. You can't go back and change all the mistakes you made.

If you didn't want to lose your virginity YOU WOULDN'T HAVE... You seem to have comittment issues, if you like someone no one else opinion should matter, so obvioulsy you didn't love the first boy friend. Then the fact that you left the second for the first shows that you didn't really love him either. How could you leave someone you loved without saying goodbye, if you were meant to be with him you wouldn't have been that big of a bitch (sorry but it's true) and really I don't see how he would ever take you back so you're going to have to live with it...

run away and hide...until you think things over-think about what you want out of yourself and the boy you left and the boy you are with..when you come up with the answer do it and dont look back, never look back because you will only screw with your mind more and end up a bitter old woman with none regretting everything!

good luck

october xx

A. You have commitment issues.

B. The world is not out to get you.

C. If you really loved him you wouldn't have broken up with him just because people told you to.

D. How old are you anyways? Twelve?

E. If I were you I would just try and get over it.