mom

hi im new here..ive been reading all the poems..n have been quite a gd read..so i thought id leave a threa..lifes been a bitch to me past 3 years..their is alot..but i dnt wnt to waste any of ur lots time.. jus need to tlk..cos most ppl i no..dnt rly care..n jus get on with their life..i lost my brother 2 years ago..n recenently lost my mom...2 weeks ago i never lived with her..she was a drunk..n drink killed her..everything is rly..hitting rock bottom...ive never cryed..ive jus always got on with it like its never happend..bt its started to take its toll...i turn to drugs to help me..but i need to stop..i live with my nan n dad..my nan is great..but my dad is jus a drunk...if my nan wasnt here..he would be drunk everyday..last time he was..he said he hated me..which wasnt very helpful lol..since my moms died..i feel like im losin alot of things..n i can never be happy..n i cnt tlk to anyone..because all i feel like is a sad mug...n no one would rly care..i cnt tlk to my nan cos dnt wnt her to no how i feel..n def not my dad..thank for readin

IM SO SORRY! I WISH I COULD HELP YOU... I THINK THE BEST THING FOR YOU 2 DO IS 2 TRY 2 DO SOMETHING 2 GET EVERYTHING OFF OF YOUR MIND... IF YOU SIT AROUND AND THINK ABOUT IT THEN IT WILL ONLY GET WORSE...BUT SOMETIMES IT HELPS IF YOU TALK ABOUT IT. I WOULD BE HAPPY TO HELP YOU... IF YOU NEED TO TALK YOU CAN EMAIL ME AT DONTDISME15@YAHOO.COM..

~MICHELLE~

hey thanks for ur reply...i do loads of things i go out alot..have a gd social life,,,but wen i come home it jus comes bk..n i jus feel so dwn..cnt sleep sometimes..wish i could go out all the time lol...but always have to come bk to it...never win lol..

YEA WELL THATS TRUE...MAYBE YOU SHOULD TRY TALKING 2 UR DAD..YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN.IT COULD SOLVE YOUR PROBLEM...YOU MIGHT THINK THAT IT WONT HELP BUT YOU COULD BE WRONG..

if you cant talk to your dad i suggest talking to a councellor, a professional would probably be better then some well wisher on the internet as they have experience and other contacts to help you deal with the grief and drugs. but if you just want someone to listen you can PM me if you want.

ps. michelle there are posts throughout the discussion board warning about not posting your email addy, maybe take notice of these in the future?

court xx

THE CRUNK PIRATE..THANX IM NEW ON HERE AND I DONT REALLY KNOW WHAT IM DOIN.

dnt feel like i could go to some one special...ill jus live with it the best i can..i survied this long..wat stopin me survivin more..

thats fine hun, you just have to remember this is a public forum so anyone anywhere could now have your email *cue spooky music* :p

edward, there is a difference between surviving and living, are there free phone councillors where you are? thats anonymous and you can do it from anywhere, i would encourage you to seek help because you obviously dont seem to happy with how things are even if you are "surviving"

Edward.

I know how you feel.

Everything came crashing down on me a year ago.
[Dont want to explain it on here b/c ppl will think of me different]

Please send me a message on here and give me your email address and hopfully we can talk on either yahoo or msn(hotmail).

I'll be there for you!

ill consider...calling some helpline..anything to stop me bein like this..it isnt me lol...thanks :D....n TheWorldFell&UWerentThere i sent u a mail mate

yay for you hun :D best of luck for the future... sometimes things can only get better :)

edward i feel for you hon, but i do need to teel you that i recommend you type more proper english on the boards.. some people get very itchy scratchy about that. i mean i surely don't type perfect, but i dnt tlk liek this either. (i am not trying to be mean)

and michelle- typing all in caps is in the guidelines as well. it is .very. annoying hon.

keep your chin up though. and i think a hotline is a good choice. and writing always helps too. =]

x33

i feel for ya, going through these things, especially all at the same time, isnt the easiest, but it all helps when ya talk to someone TRUST me. the hotline sounds good, and i suggest you try talking to your nan a bit, even if you dont tell her all of it...she's been through all of this with you, remember. she may be able to help ya more than you think. and if ya want, just PM me and i'll be happy to chat with ya :)

keep your chin up (if at all possible) and just remember... all things must come to an end.

take care
x--Emily--x