just need to tell some one about your problems?

problems? i have tons... let's start with this one.

i have a friend. it seems like i've been pushing him away lately without even knowing how and i made a poem about it. he read it and doesn't even know it's for him. does that make sense?

then... i like this guy. but i'm not sure if i do. i love being around him (he smells really good), talking to him, sitting next to him, and i love the way he laughs. i know who he likes because he's my friend and it's really obvious but i don't know if i'm jealous or i just feel sorry for myself. his friend used to like me and he says it's hard to talk to me now because of his friend. *sigh* why are boys so confusing?

Ahh problems. Well all of my problems would take forever, so i'll just tell you one:

Just like Victoria, i like this guy. Only my best friend likes him too. He likes one of the popular girls [i'm not popular], but he still hangs around me and my mates alot. the thing is, the best friend that likes him too thinks i don't like him anymore [i've liked him for almost a year now], and i don't want to upset her by telling her the truth. The one mate that knows i still like him thinks he might like me, but even if he did i don't think i'd go out with him because i wouldn't be able to just crush my friend like that.

And it sucks. Gah. I don't actually expect a reply, i just had to write it down. Yeah, anyways,

xox, PorteR