help please?

I wanted to marry this boy I love, because I knew we would be happy.
Yet somehow in the back of my head, I had this doubt. It was small, but I wouldn't listen to it because I was convinced that we would make it happen, ya know?
I was talking to him the other night, and we got into this heated debate. I never knew how closed-minded he was. Different cultures and different beliefs.. he was prejudiced, but in a way that is almost normal.. thought a certain way, a way that people told him to think. I tried to explain compassion to him, explain that it is possible to think on your own. But he was so stubborn.. I was shaking, I was so angry.
It was then I realized that, no matter how happy he would make me, I could never be with him. I could never live with someone that has no love for the world.
It made me sad, but I felt kind of free. With not knowing who I might meet, what I might do someday, It's thrilling.
But now I don't know what to do. I want to meet new people. I want to have flings and just be a kid again. Thats what I need help with. I can't just stick my hand out there. I'm not much for popularity (I'm still in H.S.) People know me as this girl who is different, but who is hard to get to know. I can't stop it. I don't want to just change who I am. I need advice.

Well.. if you want to meet new people and have flings again.. tell him. There's a chance he feels the same. Don't let it get too serious before you do something about it, it will only hurt more.

I used to be the girl who was hard to get to know, But now, I just let it all ''hang out''. I feel a lot better too. Maybe you should try it? Change is good sometimes..

Good luck!

I'm also one of those girls who is seen as different and hard to get to know. Instead of trying to change who you are, just open up. You don't need to change who you are to impress others. Show people your personality. Don't hold back or it will make it all the more difficult to meet new people and have those flings. It can be hard to open up, i know, but it gets easier. Keep in mind that there will always be those people who accept you for who you are and others who don't. That's just the way the world is. Even so, you should NEVER change who you are to impress another person or to fit in. It's best to just be you.

can someone tell me how to come over as more friendly?? I tend to close up and then I tend to be quite agressive to hide myself how can I change that?? just thought while we are on the subject

for the first post, my advice is to try 2 keep the friendship that might have developed between you 2. It sounds like you 2 were really close and trust each other. So try to salvage the friendship and once both of you agreed, you can enjoy being a kid again. Do things you normally wouldn't do. Like ask that extra question you had in your mind about math or something. Maybe that question you wouldn't normally have asked because you may be to scared 2 admit that you don't understand or you think it's a dumb question (it happens 2 all of us). In cases like those, go ahead and ask it. Or if someone seems to be having trouble in a class that you're good at, ask them if they need help. If they say no, at least they know that the offer is there. If they say yes, you can gain a friend right there. You wouldn't have anything to lose.
To me, that's all you have to say to yourself when you want 2 "hang loose". Tell yourself you hav nothing to lose! Hope that helps:)

To the comment from Haven, just try to think before you speak. Say something that you would like to hear from someone else. even if it's just a quick comment like "i like you earrings" or "nice outfit". little things like that let people think that your nicer than you may appear. As long as you count to 3 before you snap at someone for no reason, you'll do fine.=)