i hate you...

I have learned not to hate.

i have been angry.. pissed off.. disapointed.. and upset. i have had a best friend just abandon me.. i have had an abusive bf. I have been called cruel things.. i used to fight with my brothers.. but i dont hate any of them.

if i were to hate someone it would be this *guy* that is the father of my bro[half bro] because of what he did to my mom and how he used to talk to me. yeah.

I dont hate. but i strongly dislike this dumb ho ho who used to be my best friend then decided to ditch me for some one else. im over that. what makes me even more upset. is how i asked her to not let my little sister drink and crap. she looked at me and was like "do you think im that F***ing stupid."
later on i find out my sister is at a hotel party with college guys. shes 14! it upsets me. i dont want her ending up like i did. u never know what could go down at parties. i just worry about her and it hurts me when she lies to me about what she did over the weekend. when i know everything. grrr. i swear i was going to punch this girl in the hall last week. i got so pissed. but i didnt do it. whats funny is im not the kind of girl who fights. i never have been in a fist fight. but i wanted to hit her so bad.
another reason i dont like this biaaattch is because she the biggest two faced c*n* i know. shes friends with me to my face. but behind my back. to another one of my friends she talks sooo much crap on me. its funny really. cuz the girl she talks crap on me to. tells me everything. including the stuff going on with my sister.

yea anyways. that felt kinda good.

Also, i hate those type of people who try to mess with someone even though they know that someone is with someone. and they just wont stop

I hate . . .
How my best friend continually hurts me, and I hate myself even more for loving her enough to let her keep doing so.

I hate
How I can't admit
That I like people.
I hate that
I don't want to get close to them.
I can't even admit
That I have friends.
I'm pathetic.

To (what i thought was) my best friend;
i hate how you ruined our friendship over a guy. when i was willing to drop it, you HAD to get your way. i hate how you talk to everyone but me about OUr problem, a problem that doesnt concern them. i hate how even though youre such a strong person, its masking up something else and i cant do anything about it. most of all, i hate the fact that we will probably never resolve this thing due to pride.

I hate my old Best friend Holly....she messed with my head told people stuff that was confidential to her and hurt me way too much iam just so glad that tasha told me what was happenning as i did everything holly said...next i would probably be dead if tasha hadnt of told me.