Does Anyone Else Feel Like This?

Ok this may all come out rong cos it's really hard to explain so bear with me, but i was just wondering if i was the only one who feels like this sometimes!

Its like, when you're feeling really desperate and low, one half of you is wanting to kill yourself, and the other half is wanting to stay alive and is scared that the other half will succeed - and sometimes it has done before when its just got so bad. I'ts really hard to explain but sometimes i think I'm going mad - i know it aint split personalities syndrome cos i kno all about that.

Its just like wen your relli low ur having to battle the other side of you in order not to hurt yourself. and sometimes you're so scared that you'll lose control and will kill yourself without truly wanting to. Cos its like one half wants to kill yourself and the other half doesn't. so u find one half trying to persuade the other to kill yourself, like a constant battle!

Ok you'll all probably think I'm crazy or something but if anyone can relate to this PLEASE say!! I feel like I'm going mad :-(

Toni x

Dont worry I feel the same way but luckily (though it doesnt always feel lucky) the side of me which wants to survive is just a little bit stronger. Its weird to feel like your fighting with yourself... But yeah I know exactly how you feel so your not alone and i most definatly dont think your crazy else that would make me crazy

I think most of us feel that way sometimes. I know i do, anyway. But, yeah, the part that wants to live always seems to succeed w/ me, + i don't want to put mah friends thru that pain. But yeah, as Nala said, u ain't crazy!

My 2 cents worth.

xox,

PorteR

Thankyou all SO much *hugs* xxx

hey toni now how u feel i doin dat lodz l8ly so dont wory n stay strong love lidxxXxx ps u dont go to spaldin high skool d ya

Thanks every1! I'm still getting it a lot bt i dont feel like im mad anymore, thanku all SO much! xx