whats wrong with me

i agree with the post above ^^^ there is absolutely NOTHING wrong with you...you lost someone immensely close to you and everyone deals with grief differently. the only way to cope with it is to allow the sadness, anger, resentment to come, because if you push it away it will just build up and you will never feel better. i'm sorry about your loss, feel better, and take care! *hugs* i miss my grandma too...