Why do i do it?

I have this thing where when im really down and depressed the only way i can get the pain out is by cutting myself i cant help it it just cums naturally now i have done it so many times that i dont feel the pain anymore. the only pain i feel is the torture and hate on me i only have me to blame can anyone help me to overcome this it is really pathetic ay i know but i need help i cant go to a doctor coz they think im insane im not i just need sumone to be there for me someon ethat cares plz help xxx

advice taken thank you! xxx that sank in well thank you you have made me see that there is no point xx i have started martial arts so yeh it should help thanks though i owe you x