I don't know why...

OK- before I say anything, Crunkz/Yokie/Matt, I know you’re thinking, “I told you so”...

Well. There's this guy from my tuition group. It's been three weeks since I started and I see him every Sunday. Thing is... he's God damn beautiful and unbelievably smart. I've said it so many times before that I'd not get involved in a relationship (and I don't intend to at this age) - but he's been on my mind from the very first day. Only problem is that I can't get myself to even speak to him. I am perhaps the most confident person out there, but ask me to speak to him and I'll sit mute and I don’t know why! I’ve spoken to other guys I’ve liked before- but it’s different with him.

Anyone has any words of wisdom…go for it.

Thank you.x :]

Appreciate it :]

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Erm. I probably shouldn't be laughing. But I didn't say 'I told you so'. Actually I just did. Mah well."

^ I thought so. I didn't expect anything less from you, Yokie :)

And yes, he is of same culture and religion which makes the situation far better than I could've wanted it to be :). I did feel for a moment that he was, as you put it, 'way better' than me - but I thought maybe some positivity would prove me wrong.

"ok, I feel some how forced/responsible for this due to my name being in the first post"

^ And so you should damn well feel responsible for my feelings! Your words were so convincing and I immediately thought of you when I met him for the first time.

“Watch his eyes. If he looks from eye to eye, or parts of your face (particularly nose and mouth) routinely, or time to time, you've scored.”

^We still haven’t properly spoken, but boy, have we passed this stage! And how the hell can I not look at his eyes? They’re green! Lol, too beautiful, if I must say.
He has a duty of getting us all cartons of Capri Sun during the lesson (how cute?!), and just as he left the room, our eyes locked for a good 4 seconds. We both smiled but I felt kind of…embarrassed-though, I didn’t show it.

Two of my friends also attend my tuition lessons, and only one of them has seen him before. The other, however, took every possible chance yesterday to speak to him (I guess she’s crushing on him to; but it’s safer she doesn’t or I’ll crush her). As I sat just three sits from him, I watched as Natasha and Ella exchanged looks and mentioned how beautiful his eyes were (exempting his name, of course). I eventually told them to ‘shut up’ and one of them insisted, ‘Esham’s jealous now!’ He glanced at me and then looked back at his paper smiling (he knew all along it was about him) - and there’s me sitting on my seat as though in the centre of a really awkward situation.

”You'll notice in other areas of your life, with friends or family you might be a right funny cute ol' fella, but with him you seem all serious and/or tight/stuck. Relax and flow with the rhythms of life!”

^I don’t think I’d change the way I am to be with someone I like. I’d like to feel as though I’m respected for being me; therefore acting too ‘serious and/or tight/stuck’ won’t be an issue :].

Thanks for the advice, Yokie.

”I won't say anymore because you won't remember.”

^What the hell do you take me for?! I can remember as much as I have to! Heh :]

Oh and, by the way:

“I waited for at least a year before I realized I could not fight it anymore!”

^Yeah, I don’t have a year; it’s more like 14 weeks in my case. Who’s to know that we will keep in touch after we’re done from tuition? But I hope we do :]

I don't know how it works, but I become more confident when I'm scared (at least when speaking with the opposite sex). Some sort of defense mechanism, I think. Anyway! Just fake it. You're a woman, you have it in you. :-p

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I have a lesson tomorrow. Yay :D

He smelt amazing today :). *Sigh*