I need someone, someone to just understand.

those really are good words of wisdom, ThundersRose. and i can identify with what you're saying, Chelly. you shouldn't hurt yourself, though. i know what it's like to be in that much pain and i didn't want to talk to any counselors either. but you can always come here and talk b/c there's always someone listening, there's always someone who cares. i care, and i don't even know you, but i know that you seem like a really cool person with a good heart. so just be yourself, know that you're loved, special, and important. and anytime you need a friend, now you know where to come. take care, kid. peace