in need of some advice

the world seems to be falling on my sholders ive lost 7 friends and 3 family mambers in the last two years i am at the end of my rope it wont stretch any more although i am NOT suicidal i am in need of ways to cope ive tryed all i can think of and now i need some other ways. thanks for reading this

Have you ever thought of doing some coulencling? I myself find it erm soothing or helpfull to write letters to people that i wont actually give to them, maybe you could do that, but i do reccommend going to a professional, just for a couple of sessions

take care

Write songs, I've found it helps.

What Ashley said is great when you are feeling creative. However sometimes you just want to say what's on your mind without making it flow or sound pretty which is why I suggest a journal. Just write whatever your thinking and however you're feeling.
As for councellors I might be biased because the two that I've had were trauma councellors but they seemed to have more issues then I did yet they treated me like I was retarded and talked to me as if I was four ( I was 12 and 13)

I like what everybody has said here to. Councling to me is a hit or miss thing. I had 2 and I only liked one of them. helps if you have a sibling that your close to or maybe just a close friend that can talk to you and listen.

writing has helped me in the past and just having pictures of the person to remember all the good times. Someone gave me this thing and you write a letter to them telling them everything you liked about them and how important they were to you. sounds weird atm but it worked.

I know it hurts so bad right now and it may be awhile for that pain to subside but it will, time sucks but thats what it takes hun.
You can email me through PM if need be, ok?!
Feel better

I need some help.
Last year i promised my boyfriend i would stop myself.
But the wierd thing is, i still want to do it, still think about doing it.
I havent done it in a year, but i want to.
Does this still make me a self harmer?