I'm Losing my Mind...:'(

like i said, im losing my mind. i dont know what to do. my ex, logan, well i am in love with him. i mean true love. i'd take a bullet for him, i'd give him an organ if he needed it, it'd do anything for him in this world. well, he broke up w/ me 2 weeks 4 days ago, and its been the hardest time of my life. today tough..was the hardest. i found out that he had a new gf, but at the time i didnt know who, so i was like..ok that sucks but w/e. THEN at lunch on my way to class, i see him and her, and its this girl i HATE he's going out w/. shes a complete pothead, and everything, and shes mean to me and its just BAH!!! what can i do? omg. im losing my mind. in my class after lunch i was scribbling all over my binder...and idk. omg. help..idk what im asking for..but anything. please. help me.

i know i know. im stupid teenager who just thinks shes in love. im just losing my mind thats all. i know ill get over it...WITH TIME...but. i dont know if i cant last long enough to wait im losing my mind.

One day You will find somebody who loves You the way You deserve to be loved... Someone that would never get with anybody else after just 2 weeks of separation because they would still be cut up over You [Whether it was them that ended it or You]... As for being a 'stupid teenager' I disagree, we all have feelings and are all prone to get hurt, but time does heal [Even though I hate being told that at a bad time, it's true]... Just hang in there and You will start to feel better... Just know that You can do better and deserve better.

I hope You soon find the love and happiness You deserve :]

thanks guys for the support. i know i have to stick it through..it just sucks:( but thanks for the encouragements. when u guys are down, how do u pick yourselves up?

I meet up with my best friend, have a good moan/cry and the night always ends up with us giggling... We beat lots of men at pool and sit back and watch the embarrassment/disappointment on their faces at being beaten by 2 girlies hehe... Failing that I get drunk and finally fall asleep [unhealthy option] the next day I am so busy nursing my poorly head that I can't think about anything else... Hmmm sorry if that wasn't much help ;]

Just to add, that I was my ex hubby for 10 years before he decided to cheat on me and then leave me... It was the hardest time of my life, I was already suffering from clinical depression and that made the situation 1000 times worse, I ended up back in hospital for 12 weeks, and a couple of months later he moved away with my children [who ended up living with him because I was too unstable]... I went almost 6 months without seeing them... After about a year I started keeping myself busy by painting disney characters on the walls of the hostel I was living at for the children that stayed there, although I was constantly drinking that helped me loads... I then channeled my energy into trying to help others in the hostel until I met somebody else 2 and a half years after me and my ex hubby split up... That was when I got over him, I've had 2 relationships since and it's true... what doesn't kill You makes You stronger.

6 years on although I am single again, I am happier than I have ever been... I am fighting for my kids to come and live with me and really enjoying my life... I now wish that I didn't spend as much time as I did dwelling on somebody who obviously didn't love me as much as I loved him, I could have found happiness so much sooner lol... yeah I know it isn't that easy, but if You keep yourself busy doing things that bring others happiness, the happiness rubs off on You...

Sorry I have babbled on for ages, but just wanted You to see that time does heal, and You will again be happy... probably even happier than You have ever been :]

thanks for the stories u guys. well, im too young to go get drunk lol. and none of my friends are talking to me either, which makes this even harder beacuse i have no one to talk to. i told my gma, but i mean..its my gma. she is so old fashioned:/. yeah..so i have no one to talk to but ppl on here...so i cant just leave, even tho i wish more then anything i could just leave and have fun for a while...-sigh-. im doomed. lol

Find something You enjoy doing that needs concentration... Painting, puzzles, cross stitch [is a good one] anything that You have to think about, although it doesn't stop the hurting, it does give You something else to think about for a while and does take your mind off of the 'now' problems... and when You have completed whatever You are doing and see the brilliant outcome [which of course it will be ;] ] It gives You a buzz... and then start a new one lol

lol yeah..thing w/ my gma though..shes crazy. and she will say pretty much anything to be like 'i told ya so'. and well her advice is not the nicest in the world...lol

but yeah..ill try and do something to get my mind off of it...too bad my cousin isnt around anymore. lol what can i say my family is messed up. most of my family isnt talking to me either:P. well thanks again you guys...im still going crazy...but im better then when i posted this after school...

You could try going outside stamping your feet and screaming at the top of your voice... even if it doesn't help much You can have a giggle to yaself afterwards :p I think I need some sleep, my advice is getting worse lol...

You'll be okay ;]

lol i already did that.

well I don't have any good advice because basically I'm going through a similar situation.
My boyfriend and I were madly in love. We would talk about getting married and having kids like every day. I couldn't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. He seemed to be crazy about me.
Then one day he was really depressed and said he had issues and couldn't handle having a girlfriend and thought it would be best for both of us if we broke up. Two days later he had another girlfriend.
I went on a total rebound trip and got into a lot of trouble. So now not only am I grounded but my entire family is ashamed of me and they don't trust me.
I don't know what happened but my best friend is acting like she never knew me and never really wanted to either. You should see the way she looks at me when I get like five seconds of her attention. We didn't have fight or anything. The only thing I can think of is when I was looking for a shoulder to cry on after I got grounded and she told me I deserved it and went back to a conversation with another friend. I walked away heartbroken because everytime things go wrong I always at least had my best friend. Now all my other friends are ignoring me too. I don't know what's going on and I don't know what to do.
Now it's just me and God trying to get through this like year and a half until I can move far away from this place.
You're lucky to have a grandma that cares about you. Mine is just ashamed of me.