Need a shoulder to cry on?

hey guys. just want to say if you want to speak loud, i'm here for you. so speak up...

My boyfriend and I were madly in love. We would talk about getting married and having kids like every day. I couldn't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. He seemed to be crazy about me.
Then one day he was really depressed and said he had issues and couldn't handle having a girlfriend and thought it would be best for both of us if we broke up. Two days later he had another girlfriend.
I went on a total rebound trip and got into a lot of trouble. So now not only am I grounded but my entire family is ashamed of me and they don't trust me.
I don't know what happened but my best friend is acting like she never knew me and never really wanted to either. You should see the way she looks at me when I get like five seconds of her attention. We didn't have fight or anything. The only thing I can think of is when I was looking for a shoulder to cry on after I got grounded and she told me I deserved it and went back to a conversation with another friend. I walked away heartbroken because everytime things go wrong I always at least had my best friend. Now all my other friends are ignoring me too. I don't know what's going on and I don't know what to do.
Now it's just me and God trying to get through this like year and a half until I can move far away from this place.

hey i just want you to know that i'm always there for you and you can always count on me. i dont know what to say except that you shouldnt really get affected a lot by your friends coz they dont know whats going on inside of your life. you just told me a tiny little bit of your personal life and thats a lot then how about if you are having the same troubles each and everyday?! i think you ought to talk to your friends, explain them your troubles coz a small fight or misunderstanding wont break a friendship, specially if it's a strong one, and ask them why are they behaving like that. as for you ex boyfriend, well its his loss not yours. its better you found out about it now and not when you were married or something coz it would have been even more troubles for you.
they say time kills pain, just hang on, you'll get over that little obstacle of your life.
if you ever need to talk, remember i'm always there :)

thanks
Yeah my mom says that my friends are probably sick of hearing about my problems and that's why they're avoiding and ignoring me.
I just need someone to talk to but my mom won't let me on the phone OR msn(or any type of internet chat). I'm trying not to go crazy.

I'm so depressed that I'll never be able to meet Natsuki, but what should I do about it??