Help...

I have been a cutter/suicidal for almost 15 months now. in March 2004 I was caught and someone told the guidance counselor at my school, and he called my dad and then I had to go to the hospital, then they told me to get a referel from my family doctor for a psychiatrist. Well, my aunt took me to that, and she lied completely about everything and he told me to go back to the hospital, but my aunt didn't take me, she just took me home, then after that, no one ever said anything about it, so I started again...and up untill this day, I still do it...Just yesterday though, I went to my new school guidance counselor, and I told her...and I'm going to be getting help...Sometime this week, we are going to tell my dad, together, and we're going to work on slowly getting me from my objects...I only hope I don't break down and tell her why I've been depressed....Anyways, the point of this post is: if you're a cutter, you HAVE to tell...You don't want it to get worse, you don't want to get it so bad you cut through muscles and have to get 40 stitches at a time, my friend did, she's trying to stop now too...It feels good when you tell, because you know it's going to be okay, and that's the best feeling, but you have to tell someone you trust, and who is trained for this situation, like a school nurse, a guidance counselor, a doctor...anyone, you don't want to get worse, I know it's a coping method, I know it's an addiction...But you need to stop, it's a horrible addiction, and it needs to be helped. None of you deserve this pain and this torture you are putting yourself through, you're destroying your bodies with this self-harm...you need help, please get some...I beg all of you out there who cut, to PLEASE get help...It'll save your lives...Please...I love you all...please take care xxxxxxxxxx

-Mortalidaga
xxTakeCarexx
Good luck to all of you, and God bless...

You said to read it so I did.. hehe... Loved what you had to say.. I'm sure a lot of people will appreciate it.... I can see how it is an addiction.. It's a shitty one to have..
Angel

I commend you, Sarah for having the courage to tell your story and urge other people to get help. It was a great idea, hun. Thank you for your post. I'll be praying for you, and hoping that everything works out! =)

~Grace

Thank you Angel, for reading this...and Thank you Grace...love you both, take great care xxxxxxx

-Mortalidaga
xxTakeCarePleasexx

i wish you the best of luck it is a very hard thing to quit doing i am too trying to quit -
krystal

I wish you the best of luck Krystal...I hope you come out to win...best of luck xxxxxxxx

-Mortalidaga
xxTakeCarexx

luck claire...always here for you xxxxxx

-Mortalidaga
xxTakeCareAlwaysxx

love you so much hun

I admire you for trying to help people like me and others.. Best of luck to you Sarah..

and to you hun...luv yas forever babe xxxxxx take care everyone

-Mortalidaga
xxTakeCarexx

Hey darling,
I used to cut for so long. You are an inspiration to me typing your story on the internet and through all your beautiful poems. The best way to stop cutting is to get rid of anything sharp. I didn't think it'd work but i've stopped for 3 months (yay). I've read tonnes of your poems and i think they are all incredible. you don't deserve what you've been through and I hope you get better soon. Don't give up you are amazing
Sammi Morris xXx

I've stopped for a week and counting lol.. huge step for me, even though it doesnt seem like much... thanx 4 lettin me know im not alone :D
love ya's all, tanya xoxoxo

Congratulations to you both :)

Wow, amazing job Sammi...I can't wait till I get to that point :) Because I will get there. Thank you a lot for your support, I wish you the best.

Tanya, thank you. congratulations, the first two weeks are the hardest, I've only gone 9 days so far, but I know if you stand strong you'll make it...good luck to you.

Good luck to all of you who are attempting to quit, I feel your pain and I wish yu the best of luck and best in life...Take good care.xxxxxxx

-Mortalidaga
xxxTakeCareEveryonexxx

how do you know everything is going to be okay when you tell? if i tell...everything will get way worse! my parents don't care and the "friends" i have dont give a damn. if my parents did find out, they wouldn't do anything. and if i told a teacher or counselor, i'm not sure what would happen but it cant be good. and if they ever found out the reason why i do cut and why i am so depressed, i think they would take me away from my parents and...i'm not sure. but they wouldnt let me live with them anymore. and as good as that sounds, i wouldnt want anyone to know because my parents would deny everything anyway and make me the liar. i guess its just best to leave it alone. i have two more years and i'm sure i will survive...i think.

Thank you so much Sarah! I am getting out of it right now too. I've realized that its not getting me any where and the people/things, i'm doing it for aren't worth it! I'm so proud of you sweetie, you have no idea! I love you so much!
Love,
Sammy

thank you andrea and sam...love you both...i wish you both the best of luck...sorry andrea if i offended you....take care you two...xxxxx

-Mortalidaga
xxTakeCarexx