Help...

I have been a cutter/suicidal for almost 15 months now. in March 2004 I was caught and someone told the guidance counselor at my school, and he called my dad and then I had to go to the hospital, then they told me to get a referel from my family doctor for a psychiatrist. Well, my aunt took me to that, and she lied completely about everything and he told me to go back to the hospital, but my aunt didn't take me, she just took me home, then after that, no one ever said anything about it, so I started again...and up untill this day, I still do it...Just yesterday though, I went to my new school guidance counselor, and I told her...and I'm going to be getting help...Sometime this week, we are going to tell my dad, together, and we're going to work on slowly getting me from my objects...I only hope I don't break down and tell her why I've been depressed....Anyways, the point of this post is: if you're a cutter, you HAVE to tell...You don't want it to get worse, you don't want to get it so bad you cut through muscles and have to get 40 stitches at a time, my friend did, she's trying to stop now too...It feels good when you tell, because you know it's going to be okay, and that's the best feeling, but you have to tell someone you trust, and who is trained for this situation, like a school nurse, a guidance counselor, a doctor...anyone, you don't want to get worse, I know it's a coping method, I know it's an addiction...But you need to stop, it's a horrible addiction, and it needs to be helped. None of you deserve this pain and this torture you are putting yourself through, you're destroying your bodies with this self-harm...you need help, please get some...I beg all of you out there who cut, to PLEASE get help...It'll save your lives...Please...I love you all...please take care xxxxxxxxxx

-Mortalidaga
xxTakeCarexx
Good luck to all of you, and God bless...

hey im glad someone spoke out because ive been trying to aswell, ive been a cutterand suicidal for about 5 months i know it snot too long but it still hurts more then you could imagine. well i started to do it when i got back from my suspension the day before that i ranaway from my home and my whole family never looked at me the same since. i hate not being the same person i was before it hurts me so much. i started cutting when i realised i didn't want to kill myself just to feel the pain ive caused on everyone. i stopped cutting a few weeks ago but it still goe sin and out of my head and i think about it all the time. i dont know what to do ive been everywhere and never gotten anywhere. i listen to music that i think will help me realise because i trust music i trust myself and i know i will get through but i feel so torn. just writing this makes me so incicure. i have to write to people i dont know becuase i have no one to turn to. my mum is never home and my sisters are not that understanding well they are abit but u no i they wouldnt understand. i seek out poems because it lets my feelings out. thanx for writing what you did. we all love you for doing that mwah

love lisa