hes dead,gone.

on thursday night someone i know commited suicide.i wasn't very close with him,although now i realize i'll never get the chance now.i just can't believe how someone so happy like he was can be in so much pain.

he was talking to my best friend the day he killed himself,he was talking about how they were going to see each other the next day.all the plans they had made together.his last words to her were "see you tomorrow"...5 hours later he was dead.

i can't stop the tears,this has been such a bad year.seven deaths,honestly i can't stand it anymore.the drinking isn't stopping my pain,its just something i do.i'm sick of all this.i just wish it'd go away.

josh was kicked out of his house two weeks ago,he bought an apartment and started doing more and more drugs than usual.thursday he went back to his parents house and killed himself.so much pain,but he appeared so happy to everyone.

i wrote a poem about it,please go read and tell me what you think.

--lexie

Lexie,

People who commit suicide wants to be happy or atleast glimpse at the 'happy life' before they die. Even though he's gone he'll still be in your heart. All you need to do is start moving on by thinking of the good things instead of the negative like how you couldve gotten to know him better before.

sometimes people feel like if they better knew a person who commited suicide, they could have saved him/her.
The truth is that a chemical imbalance that bad cannot be fixed with an extra friend.

-Tiffany

The chemical imbalance is just one perspective of the cause of depression/suicide. There's a lot of reasons people kill themselves - but to the original poster, you weren't to know he wasn't happy, esp if he put on a happy face every day.
You can't be friends with everybosy, and he was just one person that you didnt happen to be close to. It's not your fault, and you shouldn't blame yourself, no matter how much you think you could have stopped it.
At the end of the day, there could have been any number of things going on in his life that no one could have changed

um,thanks for the help guys.although i think you had more fun arguing with yourselves.even if i didnt know him well i was still greatly hurt.i live in a town of 2,000 people,trust me,we know each other.
the pain i see in my best friends eyes,the tears that fall,the life he had,we can never go back.we can never save him.hes gone.its a very hard thing to go through for all of us,despite how close we were to him.
again,thanks for your opinions.if anyone else has any advice on how to help my friends and family deal with this death please let me know.
--lexie

also,chemical imbalance didn't cause his death.i have depression and a chemical imbalance,and i knew he didn't have that.he was addicted to numerous drugs,which sent him into a downfall after he was kicked out of his house.

Chemical balance is only one possible cause of suicide. I study psychology, and it depends on which point of view you are coming from as to whther it's a chemical imbalance or something else

And also, it may be that depression causes a chemical imbalance, not that a chemical imbalance causes depression

As for dealing with it...there's no right or wrong way, that's the most important thing to remember. Just because some people may seem like they're over it, it doesn't mean they are, or that they're trying to be insensitive or anything, it's just their way of dealing with it.

Talk about him, cry about him if you need to, but also remember that you are allowed to be happy if something good happens, don't feel guilty about laughing and smiling again.

I don't really have a lot of time atm, but that's one piece of advice ^