i'm so confuse!!

hi i'm new here at poem-qoutes.com as i was searching for the answer this is where i end up.. to share my confusement. and mybe an advice will help me. i am so confuse.. i am now a mother or 1 he's going 2 next month. i am not yet merried. i've been with with my partner for almost 4 years, he's the father of our son. now my problem is i had 3 boyfriend before him (my present) the real problem i'm having now is that my first love. i had never forget him. i have unfinished feelings for him. i'm so confuse. i had no contact eversince i broke up with my first one because i said to myself i'll find a better one. now everything is perfect the man of my dream is now my partner but there is still missing, last week i have found out from one of my best friend when he saw me he told her that he still loves me and asking what did i see from my partner that he doesn't have. i'm so wanted tempted to talk to him. but i know it's wrong.. what's my problem? my problem is I LOVE HIM STILL. it's been i week since i've seen him (my 1srt) and up until now i'm still thinking about him. i love my partner but something is missing.. waaaaaaaaaaaa!!! i'm so confuse! i love him! i wanted to tell him.. i don;t know what to do! please help me.

just talk with both, your husband and your fist. become friends with him. that will make you feel better.

i'm not yet married but we have a son my partner. we're not yet merried due to his mom decsion. she don't want us to get merried yet. she wants him to acomplished something. i am still wondering about my feelings.. and my life is so colplicated right now. my partner comes every weekends and we are living together in the same roof. he come every weekends coz he's in the navy. yeah! he's in the navy! for 2 years now. i still have to wait for 2 years. and then he will marry me.. i don't know how much longer i could wait. i've been waiting and waiting for him.. and now that mt 1rst came around my life seems to be so confuse.. and i still love him... trongly now. :(

hi again, i am now totaly loosing my mind. i took my friends advice to talk with my x-bf. and i did.He explained everything why.he said he really still loves me and even he cried infront of me i end up crying too. i told him i was hurt. hurt that he left me. but his response was it was because my mom talked to him. and warned him. it was the shocking moment of my life. knowing my mom was involve. i was still studying that time and he said he respected me. and respect my mom. he didn't want that he'll be the reason of my failure in my studies. fuck it really hurts so much! i still love him too so much! and i told him that. and the craziest thing happen we end up kissin. damn! what am i doing? i still love him too. i am totally loosing my mind. and i am in deep shit. i am soooo confuse. i don't know what to do anymore. he wants me. he will do everything and he said that it will be my only decsion who i choose.. he's making me choose. i really don't know... soooo confuse. :(