barbara
17 years ago
okay so my name is barbara and i go to bolsa grande high school in westminster, ca. I write poetry as a way to prove to myself that what i have gone through is real and can be overcome. Certain things have hurt me more than others and i am still trying to overcome. I am 16, my birthday is in may(22), i LOVE music and writing. Um....i skateboard and i am spontaneous...i can get along with anyone who knows not only how to have fun but also when its time to stop having fun....i also have a myspace. It's myspace.com/barbara3004. |
Beauty In The Breaking
17 years ago
Well hello Barbara. |
Beauty In The Breaking
17 years ago
Well really I started writing story's years ago to help me deal with stress, death and my family falling apart. |
barbara
17 years ago
oh so i take it you looked at my poems?!?!?! just a guess.....lol....but yeah as im sure you've guessed i8 was raped....i lived with my aunt and uncle for 7 years and the whole time i was his toy....until i was about 10 though i didn't really know better...but thanks to my writing i have been able to force myself to accept that it happened and also realize that i CAN heal...so that's what got me writing...and i am very open about it because i am healing and i can USUALLY talk about it without hurting... |
Beauty In The Breaking
17 years ago
I'm sorry that you had to go through something like that, but the only way that I'm able to live with the things that have happened and the things I see and can't do anything about, is to think that everything happens for a reason and that if I hadn't gone through it then I wouldn't be the person I am now or be as strong as I am. |
barbara
17 years ago
amen to that!!! i agree 100%. cause im catholic and i figure that god makes us all as strong as we need to be and he only gives us what we can handle....certain people have a hard time understanding that and thats why the youth is so troubled....i am coming to terms with everything that has happened......after a bit of experimenting....but still.....and like my tio always says.....what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. |
Beauty In The Breaking
17 years ago
Yes I know that saying very well. I'm kind of catholic myself also and believe most of what they say but I also am sort-of alternative religion at the same time. My unofficial bf is in Kung-Fu so I add a lot of Chinese beliefs also |
Beauty In The Breaking
17 years ago
Well let me think here..... country, rock and roll, r&b, Irish and Scottish folk and dancing music, some classically at times and whatever else I feel like at the moment. Some of my fav.'s are Nickelback, Garth Brooks and Lonestar. |
barbara
17 years ago
yeah thats how it is with my man....he is gonna be back home from texas in 2 weeks and we will be back together.....this guy that i was interested in and was also interested in me met me at a school dance and i had on a skirt.....all i told my guy was that he had reached up my sjirt(which is only half of it) and he was immediatly at my school....and he picked me up and made it really clear to the other guy that i was his.....i felt soooo loved...and i know what you mean..my guy was trained by his dad who was a navy seal for 10 years and in the army for 5....his hands are legal weapons....lol.....but at the same time he wont hit a chick either......hey im gonna go offline soon.....do you have email or myspace? |
Beauty In The Breaking
17 years ago
I don't have a myspace but I do have a email and i check it all the time. My email is, sea-dweller@gotsky.com and would love to talk anytime you want. I'm a totly night owl o.O |
barbara
17 years ago
thanks sooooo much!!!! i haven't read yours yet but i will and i will comment too!!! sorry....welll im off to bed cause i have school in the morning...but if you ever want to get a hold of me my email is imrosa3004@yahoo.com and imrosa3004@gmail.com |
Beauty In The Breaking
17 years ago
Howdy there Barbara |
Beauty In The Breaking
17 years ago
Hi there again! You know this is kind of fun writing back and forth like this and it seems we always miss each other by an hour or two X) lol |
Beauty In The Breaking
17 years ago
Hehehe I'm doing fantastic ^.^ and it is really funny how we always miss each other xD |
silvershoes
17 years ago
Hey sexy. |
barbara
17 years ago
Nothing much...but im confuzzled!!! my ex-bf and i are still in love and shit but he lives really far away now...but thats not the confusing part....i lost a LOT of weight and i feel really good now that im healthier...but he wants me to be chubbier....so i dont know i have to choose between pleasing him and making myself happy....other than that drama though everything is pretty good! i got a solo in the choir festival and im excited about that.....happy early b-day!!!! congrats on all your stuff! |
Beauty In The Breaking
17 years ago
Lol Thanks Barbara =) I'm pretty happy 'bout it all to =D |
Beauty In The Breaking
17 years ago
*smiles* your very welcome ^.^ Just remember, your perfect the way you are, never let anyone *not even yourself* make you believe anything else =) |
Victoria Rainey
17 years ago
Hey barbara.. after reading these post.. just so u know u aint the only one.. I was raped too.. and my brother molested.. and my mother beaten. .. never wanted by my real father. .. he got out of jail early for good behavior.. Jan 13.. anyway . the last few years have been improving too .. I have a new father. he cares so much about me and my family ... and i felt like I needed to share this with you, cause I been throught the same. and ur not alone..... |