They don't understand...

I have no one who understands me. I have friends....but they have no idea what I'm going through.
Please don't get me wrong, they're great! But....I can never open up to them. I'm always happy and smiling when I'm around them, but as soon as I get home I spend hours crying.....I don't know...I just feel so alone. I want someone who will understand me and accept me.

It's the same with my parents. They don't even try to understand. They're always telling me they love me....but it seems fake......Their smiles aren't loving and gentle like they should be. Instead, their smiles are forced and unfeeling.

I feel like they hate me. I know they don't want me. I can see it on their faces........I just don't know what to do....Now I feel like God doesn't even want me.....

well if u want i can try and understand, don't know how good i'll be but i'll give it a go. just email me

aw hun
i feel the same
i have the worlds greatest friends
but they have no idea
so. if you want to talk im here =]

My friends are the happiest people in the world usually. I hate it. They know what I'm going through, in words. They have no idea, in feeling. I feel just like you.

I have friends that are so great but everything is hate or love and they are all such optimists. I don't fit with them and I can never tell them how I really feel inside about them and everything they do, and about everything I feel and my real life. I understand what you're saying completely.

xbeyond_helpx, I don't want to bug you by
e-mailing you....

i am exactly the same, and i am so sorry. it sucks really bad..i wish i could help somehow...but i cant even help myself :-/

nah seriously u wont bug me. i am more than happy to help. that's one of the reasons i came on this site along with the poetry ofcourse. but it's totally up to u i don't want to push someone into talking when they don't want to. i no when people have tried to make me talk it has just turned me against them even more. but as i said i can't guarrentee that i'll understand. but i have heard a lot of people's stories and will probably be able to relate to some of what your feeling. but yeh it's up to u. but just so u no u wont be bothering me.

If you have a poetic temper, it's most likely that many won't understand you. Be proud and go ahead through tears and pain, through their rejection and disdain. Your parents don't hate you. They probably can't rise to your sensitivity level, or simply want to force you a bit to be more realistic, for your own good, they think.

Puberty is not to be blamed as much as our temper. I'm 36 and still feel the same.

I know how this feels!

my friends dont have a clue how i feel an wen am around them i smile for there sake!

private message me if you wanna chat!
Take Care
Helen

XxX

You guys are right, it's probably just me........I guess I just have to hold up my head and keep going...though it really is hard sometimes.....But after all, I should be thankful for what I have. After all, there are people who have it worse than I do.

But....no matter how hard I try, I just can't find the strength to believe in myself and to be proud of who I am....I always feel like my faults cause problems for other people and I hate myself for it...

;_; Thanks for listening to my little pity party >.>