Depression and giving up on your dreams

I’ve suffered depression for over half of my life. I don’t want to compare myself with anyone else. All I can say is that it has been a nightmare and only recently have I been able to understand what has happened.

This has all happened out of the blue in most ways I’m average or above average in most things. If I have any faults its probably that I a little too easy going ( I don’t take much in life seriously)and I spend too much time looking at porn very much like many other people. I could whine on about having lost friends to suicide, having had a bad back injury and chapters on disasters chasing love. And all the gay issues …………where to start.

But they are all irrelevant they only acted as barriers to do the things in life that I used to dream of. It’s the giving up on those goals that really drag you down. Whatever you find important that’s what gets you up in the morning and keeps you awake at night dreaming.

If it’s raising a family, meeting the man/woman of your dreams, going to the top in your sport, becoming a dancer, writer, teacher, having time to explore the world or spent time with your friends that’s the really important stuff. Everyone has had hopes and aspirations at one time in their life.

I could have killed myself many times over the last ten years but I don’t think that would have been the tragedy. A lifetime of losing my dreams would have been.

well just talk to someone....or get help get ur dreams and your life back on track.....i suffered depression for bout 2 to almost 3 years now but urs is half ur life which is not good get help b4 ur future and dreams actually fly out the window,...