My last hope?

This is kind of long but please read and help me!!!!

I am pretty sure that you guys are my last hope. I need some help. Me and my boyfriend have been together for a a year and a half now and everything has been great. but now, i am starting to doubt things. i love him so much but I dont see us making it over the summer. I don't know. Our relationship has been so difficult. We started dating when I was 14 and he was 17 1/2. We were pretty much crazy about each other. But our one obstacle was my mom. When my mom found out about things, we were not allowed to talk for quite some time. We ended up breaking up because we figured she would never let us be together. Well, we talked and talked about it for a while and decided that we wanted to stay together. So then we got back together and had more and more problems with my mom. So we lied and said we were just friends. My bestfriend was not thrilled about us being together either because he was almost 18 and she figured all he wanted from me was sex (which isnt true because we have been together for this long now and still havent had sex =D ). So me and her battled also. Me and her hung out for the first time since then on monday. Pretty much a year, but anyways. Me and Isaac would sneak around and see each other (which i regret doing now because i lost my mom's trust for a VERY long time..) which made our relationship even more excited. AFter about a year, my mom let us start hanging out and being together. She really really likes him now and she pretty much considers him like a son to her. Well, now he is a senior..and things are getting to be pretty scary.. he is going to be graduating and all that fun stuff. like college and that sort of thing. We plan to attend prom in May, too. We have had all these plans how we were going to stay together forever. (you know how that goes..) But lately, I have been having these doubts about us staying together. And I don't know what to do. I love him very much but I just dont see things working out in the long run. This scares me so bad sometimes that I will just lay in my room and cry. Its just, we have been through so much together but I just dont want to throw all of it away. But then again, i just KNOW it is going to happen..... It has been bugging me so bad lately that it is really the only thing that I can think about. When I am talking to him, I feel like everything is going to alright. But when I am just sitting by myself or something like that, i just know things aren't going to work out.. I kind of feel like I need to somehow prepare myself for this.

sorry about me rambling on and on. I just have no clue what to do...

You aren't just rambling, I know EXACTLY how it feels, because I'm in almost the same sitution, he is going off to college soon, and I'm afraid as well that it's all going to end. I don't want it to, but it might. I know that's not what you want to hear, but what do I know, it might all work out. My advice, talk to him about it.
.:Danielle:.

You know what honey
You're doing what i do, letting my fears take over.
No one ever knows if a relationship will work out.
People that have been married for ten years never know if they will still be together in a years time.
It's life sweets and thats the great thing about it. We don't know what's happening next.

The only thing i can suggest is; don't dwell on it.
When the fear is bubbling up, do something, anything, to take your mind off it. Play a happy song, write a poem about your boy, just watch some TV or go for a walk.
Or better yet, talk to your boyfriend about it. Chances are he will be able to make you feel better about it just by talking about it.
We all feel like this at some point hun, the trick is to not let it get you down.
My email is on my profile page if you want any more advice whenever.
I hope i helped a little
Good luck sweets
*Gem*

But how do I talk to him without hurting his feelings? I am one of those kind of people who will do whatever it is to avoid hurting the ones they love. Thats why things like these get so hard for me.

He is going to start his life with a college or somethings like that and I am going to be here in Highschool wanting to hang out with my friends (guys and girls), and I know very well he isn't going to be very fond of that. And I am going to want to go to parties and stuff like that and just have a great time. But I love him so much and I know if I stay with him, I am going to miss out on a lot of my teen life. You know? But I love him and want to stay with him. It feels like he is my life and I can't be with anyone else but him. But then again, I feel like I MIGHT want to see other people later on down the road. But I don't want to break things off with him because we have been through SOO much.

I just want to cry. I, seriously, at a breaking point..

You just have to build up your courage, and talk to him about it, there isn't anything else you can do, you can't just let it keep eating you up inside. Besides that, he deserves the truth. It won't be easy, but just keep reasurring him, but let him know how you feel. Because if you don't talk to him, it's going to eat you up from the inside, and that's just going to create stress in the relationship. Hope this helped, and good luck, hope it all works out for you in the end
Much Love,
.:Danielle:.

Well it doesnt hurt to prepare youself for the worst. Let things continue... then also prepare youself for the worst. Still love him. But be prepared ( said that 50 times ). Another thing, think about it.... would you miss him more if you were or werent together?

Thanks you guys. If anyoneelse has advice, that would help too. Thanks!

Hmm...I am in a similar situation. I can't say what would be the best solution, but I know what I would do - honestly talk about it with my girl friend. Never should one person suffer more than the other, for in such a relationship both people should carry half the burden of each other's pain.

Try to talk to him about it, maybe not full on but you know.