BIG problem HELP!!!!

  • IdTakeABulletForYou
    17 years ago

    My poem "I Never Will Forget You" has the Nominated for the Best Love Poems of All Time, and it told me to edit it. But I CAN'T edit it because it is TOO LONG! AHHHH! It is so long and I want it to be nominated but it WON'T LET ME! HELP!

  • IdTakeABulletForYou
    17 years ago

    My head lays on my pillow
    the room is dark and damp
    (-- if I could only see your face
    though I know that I can't)

    I try to close my eyes and sleep
    but your face haunts my dreams
    (I feel like I've been torn apart...
    I'm broken at the seams)

    I toss and turn; I'm restless
    I know I will not sleep
    (I know that I still think of you
    do you still think of me?)

    my eyes now face the darkness
    the demon's haunting our lives
    (it seems we had it all and more
    why did you leave me; why?)

    it seems the clock ticks slowly
    and yet our love went by so fast
    (where did I go wrong in this
    to make this love not last?)

    I sit up smooth, but slowly
    I grip my sheets in my bare hands
    (why did you have to leave me here?
    I cannot understand...)

    it seems the night is quiet
    as I stand by my dark window
    (you left with not a word to say
    why did you have to go?)

    the crickets dance like autumn
    the night is lit like June
    (I'm waiting for you to return;
    are you returning soon?)

    laying on my bed once more
    I stare blankly ahead
    (was this all you or was it me?
    is our love truly dead?)

    I feel like such an empty pleasure
    like I could scream aloud this night
    (was I just living in a dream?
    was nothing really right?)

    I watch the seconds pass me by
    the silence fills my heart
    (you know that I am fragile;
    do you know I'm torn apart?)

    a tear slides down my ghostly face
    and falls onto my sheets
    (were you just playing with my head
    did you truly love me?)

    I close my eyes so gently
    as if I am afraid I'll break
    (how did we lose the love we had?
    was all the love a fake?)

    the questions lull me into sleep
    a sleep filled with your face
    (I thought that I had melt your heart
    which no one could replace?)

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    I wake up to a quiet morning
    the world is still the same
    (you were the best that I had
    and now I'm stuck with pain...)

    my routine passes quickly by
    not consciously awake
    (it seems you are the only one
    is all this a mistake?)

    I feel like going back to bed
    but your laugh lingers there
    (you said that you would never leave
    you said you'd always care)

    my breakfast has no taste at all
    the news is nothing new
    (do you know that I'm hurting now
    -- it's all because of you...)

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    driving down a busy street
    I skim the crowd for you
    (you never even said goodbye
    -- there's nothing I can do)

    I take a turn off of my route
    so that I'll pass your house
    (it seems that you were just a cat
    -- was I the stupid mouse?)

    the numbers pass and yours is near
    I speed up just a bit
    (you must've known the plan so well
    before you got into it...)

    and impulse makes me turn abrupt
    and I am at your home
    (I never thought you'd leave me
    -- why'd you leave me all alone?)

    I noticed while I parked my car
    that five cars sat as well
    (did you even try to catch me
    do you know I fell?)

    with hesitation, I pull through
    I walk right to your door
    (could have told me what was wrong
    do you love me no more?)

    I ring the bell and wait for you
    it seems I wait so long
    (why did you never call me
    what ON EARTH did I do wrong???)

    the door opens so slowly
    I hold my breath in deep
    (did you ever even care?
    was this make-believe?)

    it isn't you who answers
    but a woman with tears in her eyes
    (were there things that I didn't know?
    are there things you still hide?)

    I ask to speak with you to her
    but sadly she says no
    (where'd you disappear to?
    why'd you even have to go?)

    I scrunch my face and ask her why
    -- her answer breaks my heart
    (did you ever care for me
    you must've meant to break my heart...)

    "I'm sorry, he has passed away,
    He's been dead for a week..."
    (was it true, was it all love?
    was death why you left me?)

    "...His wake and funeral have passed
    his grave's a town away"
    (will I never see your face?
    not another word you'll say?)

    "Did you know him well?" She asks
    I nod as tears fall down my face
    (you always loved me... you always will
    no one will EVER take your place...)

    "I was his boyfriend
    I've been torn apart
    I thought he had left me
    -- thought he'd broken my heart..."

    She replied, "I know I shouldn't tell you
    but I feel that I must
    and if I tell you this little secret
    will you betray my trust?"

    I answered, "Oh, no, I never would do that
    trust me with all your heart
    I am better now, now that I know
    he didn't mean to tear me apart..."

    "Dear, he died alone.
    -- His death was by suicide
    he told no one about his plans
    but suddenly took his own life."

    I break down crying
    the woman kneels down
    (why did you do this?
    -- I'd have helped you out!?)

    with tears flowing down
    the woman asks me my name
    (without you, my love,
    life will not be the same.)

    "Stephen, my name is Stephen
    I suppose you are his mother?"
    (my soul has been broken badly
    you'll be replaced by no other.)

    "No, I am his aunt,
    his mother's dead too
    and if you're really Stephen
    then he wrote this letter for you..."

    I look at the manila envelope
    unopened and so smooth...
    (Oh, what is inside this death note
    -- what have I made you do?)

    I opened the letter
    so delicate; so scared
    (Oh! What have you written?
    Just what is in there?)

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    Dear Stephen,

    By now you must have noticed my absence from your life and that I am no longer among the living. You must have noticed that and thought that I had abandoned you, more now than ever since you are aware that I am never coming back. There is no definite reason for my departure from this world. I hope that you will not have it stuck in your head that it is because of you that I have killed myself. I hope that you are aware that it is not. I would like to tell you something: I have been addicted to many forms of self-mutilation for some time. I have not participated in activities that lack clothes or any activity that reveals skin, in fear that you or someone else, mostly you, would see or notice my scars and think less of me. It seems as if I am not good enough for you or anyone. That I will have no future, that I will never be able to take my shirt off without being self-conscious or reminded of my horrid past, or even present. I just can't... couldn't take it anymore. You seem so perfect... perfect life, perfect friends... it hurts... me being so flawed. I wonder what you saw in me, and if you were just playing games with my head. It drove me crazy. I know you must think it odd, but... there is so much pain coursing through my soul as I write this, I believe I will be at rest in the next life, or wherever death takes me. You may or may not forgive me, and you probably don't understand my reasoning... and most likely never will.
    I would like you to have a picture of me, and I hope that you won't rip it up, I hope that you will never let me go, and I hope you will not hate me. Please, do not cry for me so that I can die in peace knowing I did not break your heart or I did not make you choose the same fate as I, myself, did. I hope that everything is and will be okay, and I hope that you will remember all of the good times that the two of us shared, and don't think of my life just by my suicide.

    P.S.- Please do not visit my grave. I do not want you to cry for me, and if you visit my grave, I am sure that you will cry.

    I guess now It's time to
    test my quote:
    "All my love; 'til
    death then in the ground."

    Love,
    *****

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    I broke into tears as I read the death letter
    I knew that it made nothing deep inside better
    he was gone, and I knew that he'd never return
    no matter how hard I may wish or I'd yearn.

    and inside the smooth envelope
    he left a lonely picture
    his smiling face and his vibrant, blue eyes
    (The Boy Who Took his Perfect Life)
    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    I never will forget you
    I want to make sure THAT you know
    all my love 'till in the ground
    (I'll never let you go...)

    Thanks so much for reading. This is by far the longest poem ever written, but it seems so short to me. If anyone has actually read this far, I hope that you will be courteous enough to vote on my poems, especially since I took the time to write this long poem, it takes just a second to vote. Even if it's just a random vote, it means everything. I hope that you enjoyed my poem, and I would be even better if you told me how much you did or didn't enjoy my poem though a comment. I thank you for taking the time, once again, and I hope that you will look out in a week or so for a new batch of poems.

    Thanks Again,

    Stephen White

  • IdTakeABulletForYou
    17 years ago

    It IS long

  • IdTakeABulletForYou
    17 years ago

    Grrrrr... JANIS WHERE ARE YOU?

  • Italian Stallion
    17 years ago

    I'm having the same problem with one of my poems, it says I have slang terms and should submit it in the slang section. It's already submitted I just want to edit it for the nomination.

  • IdTakeABulletForYou
    17 years ago

    Ditto.

    How long do we have to edit them?

  • Italian Stallion
    17 years ago

    Not really sure, but I assume it will be for a while.