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well i actually attempted suicide a few nights ago by pills. it didnt work i just puked my guts out. i was so upset i was crying thinkg i cant even kill myself right. so on friday night i decided i was going to try it again tomorrow night. i decided tomorrow night because tomorrow i have to go to a young writers conference. i wouldve done it already but my mom was so proud when i got the note saying i was invited tot hte writing thingy. i told my mom what i was thinking and i dont think she thinks im serious. ooh well i just wanted to say bye to all you wonderful people and to say that i admire those who have the strngth to go on, and thanks you to all who listened to my babbling in my time on the site. i lvoe you all

natasha, there is no right way to kill yourself because simply i dont think you should. i cant believe your mom doesn't believe you are serious. if i told mine, she would probably die of happiness. but friday i also did the same thing. i took too many pills during school and it was scary experience. i passed out in the bathroom and i had a few people worried. but i am not sure if i would do it again. right now i say i wont but tomorrow i will probably change my mind and decide i too much pain to stay alive and deal. i know i do not know you or your ordeals for wanting to kill yourself but please dont.

thanks you for your concern but it is just to much, i am crying as i right this, i feel it is my last choice. and again thanks you. you seem like the only one who cares

why is it your last choice? have you tried a lot? and of course i care!

well i tried talking to my mom but that didnt work. i asked her for a counsoler but she said no. i acted out in school so maybe my mom would believe there was a problem but everything only gets worse.

i know what you mean. i told someone about a problem i had before. and it only got way worse. i guess thats why i never trust people.

yea i dont really trust people either, thanks for talking to me tonight

your welcome. are you still going to try to kill yourself? i sure hope not...

ur mom mihgt not belive u or wantto belive such a thing but she obvuiosly is very proud of u. taht showed when u wrote she was excited bout ur poerty invite.thers nothign to hard in tehis life taht cant b overcome . thers no reason to die it might b very shitty right now in ur life but it does not stay that way u can make a beter future 4 yrself.have kids a family a place of ur own a life full of such happiness to rob urself of such joy due to soem hard times isnt teh thing to do.think of how ur motehr will feel when ur gone the rest of ur family ur friends ther are ppl who love u once u do this one selfish act teh ppl uleave bheind hurt so much nad ist soo hard to move on.i talk form exerience my bro killed himself when he was 13 and teh impact on everyone was earth shattering.so i hope u reconsider and see what life has to promise one day its a beautiful thing u can have if u let yrself.

I hope im not too late!
please dont kill yourself. i know i don't know you but everyone has hard times, you just have to wait, the storm should be over soon and then you'll see the sun. please dont let it be too late. Please stay here!

Dont kill yourself. Trust me, it's not worth it. I tried it once by cutting my wrist. My friend who knew I did it was really worried about me. Think about the people that would be hurt. I know it seems really hard sometimes, and I hope I'm not too late. I don't know you, but I don't think you should kill yourself. Find someone to talk to who can unsderstand.
Don't give up!
Hamster