How to move on?

I dont know what to do. I've been depressed for what seems like forever. Its been a few months and I cant bounce back. I had a bestfriend who isnt anymore and who hates me and makes my life hell. I have a sister who can never do the right thing and always leaves me in a position to either tell on her and listen to my parents yell at her all night or just let her continue to do the things that can possibly even kill her. I have a friend whose throwing their life away, one whose dying, and no one i can go to. Everyone always says go to a councelor or a parent but I dont know how to. I had a guy try to use me for sex and then threten to kill me for 5 months if i were to ever tell anyone about it and i just dont know how to deal with it all. I've cutten myself before and even tried to give it all up a few times and im 12. Thats why i never go to anyone. I fear that they think im too young to be feeling all of these ways or be depressed yet i am. I just dont know how to deal with it anymore and dont want to spend the rest of my life feeling this way. How do I move on??

Well I really want to help you but I'm afraid I can't tell you how to move on because it's different for everyone and only you can do it. If you want then I can only give you advice. I know you might not want to see a counsellor and that's fair enough because I know I've been told to see one before and it just gets me annoyed but it's really important that you tell someone instead of keeping it inside. Why don't you try to ring an anonymous help line or tell someone who you really trust? I hope things turn out well for you. And by the way, if anyone tells you that your too young to be feeling the things you do then tell them to get a life because your age doesn't always reflect your maturity and emotions and you have the right to feel however you want. Good Luck
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I understand what you mean. I guess im just afraid to get the help and actually face it. I've kept all of this in for a long time that its hard to let it out.

I can`t tell you how to move on . And with things like that going on, I can`t tell you to smile either . But do stay strong, and keep you`r head up . You care about you`r sister, and that counts . If she wants to do those things, it`s her life -- but keep trying to lead her in the right way . Tell her how you feel about the things she`s doing ; don`t just stay quiet . You may not want to talk to a cousnelor, or a parent, but talk to someone . You can`t keep it all inside, `cuhs it`ll just end up eating at you from the inside . Call a help line, and talk . They won`t judge you; they`ll listen . And if anyone tells you you`r too young, tell them they shuld shut up because with age doesn`t come maturity . I get told I`m too young all the time -- I don`t let it affect me . It could be scary right ? I didn`t want to face the bad crap going on in my life, but facing it and overcoming it leaves you with a sense of security . `nd you`ll feel free. I know I don`t nkow you, but if you ever need to vent, just send me a private message, `nd I`ll listen . `tho I may not be able to help, having someone there always does even just a little .
..__MiNDYY