Gay

Why is it so hard to find the perfect gay soulmate? It seems he (for girls, she) Doesn't exist. I always keep falling in love with straight people, and I go virtually crazy with desire, and broken hearted with hopelessness. It seems being gay just opens me up to a world of emptiness and broken heartedness. AHHHH WHY?????

I've fallen in love with someone who gave me their world, then took it away before I could kiss him goodbye.

He fell in love with me, I not him. He was 19, I was 15.

I fell for him, then he was timid about being with someone so young.

I told him it was okay.

Well, He left me.

Six months of ignoring me, I talked to him online and yelled at him and called him every swear that exists.

He informed me that he broke up with me.

Yeah, my best friend finally admitted to me today that he is not bi, but completely gay. It's hard for guys sometimes to admit to it then I think it is for girls.

I know a TON of bi girls (including myself), and not so much gay or bi guys. Perhaps that has to do with girls commonly being more accepting and open then guys are.

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I hate to admit that I sometimes cry myself to sleep because I just want to be accepted. It really hurts, to know guys are afraid of me.

I am the straightest gay guy (around guys), yet...

Sigh. It just hurts so much.

It's so lonely.

Damn. Sorry about complaining.

I suppose since I have no one else to talk to, this is my only place to vent.

I could tell you tons of stories of different ways my friends have abandoned me.

Yeah, my friend and his boyfriend get picked on all the time, but they're really strong (emotionally). It's sad that they've had to bulid up this wall of protection against others, but at least thay have friends that understand them, like me.

I hope things get better for you.

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Well, ever since my last love, my heart has been unrepaired. It seemed everything his literally gone down hill.

Okay, get this.

I had this best friend since 8th grade. Her name is Jessica. I removed her from my friends list, but she has an account with a poem somewhere on here.

Anyway, she lives down the street and we go to two different schools; me, a private/catholic school, her, the town public school.

I introduced her to my friends, and they hit it off great. We both got invited to parties.

Little did I know they only invited me so that she could come.

Well, on New Year's Eve, this year, we were invited to the New Year's Eve party. Well, since I had given her a ride to all the other parties, I asked her if she would give me a ride since my mom couldn't drive me.

She said yes.

Well, around 4:00 on the day of the party, she called with a killer cough and said she was sick, throwing up, all that junk, and wouldn't be able to go to the party. I said Fine, I hope you get better, and I don't care about the party.

The next day at school, my friends asked where I was...
Well, Jessica had faked sick to me, just so I didn't go to the party.

She lives just down the street. It would take 5 seconds to pick me up.

I haven't talked to her ever since.

I saw her today. She walked away. It was the first time in 2 months we came eye to eye.

We said not a word.

Thats so mean!

Sigh. It really hurts when she is... was the last connection to the .... people I used to hang out with..

Now that I ignore her, they ignore me.

Thanks for the concern btw, you both get a spot on my fav's.

Thanks, m'dear.

Sorry, even though it was intuitive, your assitance, i'm still as effed up as i was before this thread.

It's just .... way too tiring to be lonely. I totally skipped my English final, and may even have to stay back, just because I wanted to be accepted by the kids in my neighborhood and it's just... I am just so tired. On the verge of... quitting everything.

Not that i would...

I feel like a loser, complaining... and even more of a loser saying I'm a loser because I'm complaining lol.

Then do it. Here & now.

Yes you do. Liar.

You are brave though. LMFAO

I have to go to bed.

Fun, Fun.

Bye bye.

Thanks. Kisses.

Yea. It seems that things just get worse. Oh well, may as well live through it.

I think everyone has a problem with finding the perfect soulmate regardless of their sexuality...so we're all in the same boat?
I guess it's best to be patient and wait for love to come to us, as they say, and just hope for the best. After all, we all have to just stick it through in the end right?
Wish you all the best
xxx.

Well do you want to be gay?

I agree with riffy, we are all in the same boat, it happens no matter what sexuality you are people are still going to hurt you and it is still hard to find a soulmate, everyone gets hurt and it just makes them find a deeper love the next time

it will all work out ok sweetie i promise =]

MD

(ps PM me again later ks?)

Stephen, dear, don't give up on life because life is not giving up on you. You are just at a time when things are hard. I'm sure being Catholic doesn't help at all ((going to a private Catholic school, I just assumed)) I know that they condem the thought of gays. I beleive that if people are truly happy, then they should not be criticized or be made to live a different life. Look back 100 years when we treated African Americans that way. Looking back, we see it was wrong to treat them in such a manor; why can't we see that we are doing the same thing again, only to people who like the same sex as they are. If you are happy with yourself, then your true friends will love you for who you are and you so called friends will leave you ((*ahem* Jessica)) and you will be 100X better off without them. Good Luck in whatever you do!
xox *hugs* m'dear xox
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Pee.Ess. I'm here if ya need a PM buddy! :]

It is hard to find lovers who are gay (i am not but i may be bi)

I only know a couple of gay people. heyve told me out of confidence because they are so afraid of what their peers wqill htink of them. i always loved them to bits but no some people would start ditchen em if it was in hte open. i say screw people who cant accept people who wanna be with ht ones they love!!! you have all the rights in the world to be happy so i hop you do find the one you love who returns the same feelings. there are not very many genuine people out there but a fair heap of em are on here. maybe one day ul bump into him or something and ul just no thats who you want. But whatever happens i wish you the best and take no notice of those di**heads who cant accept you for the bloody awsm person you are!!!
jo
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M'dears, i'm atheist... my parents just send me to a catholic school.

And actually, the secret is... I'd kill to be straight. It's just... easier. I wouldn't have to worry about the hundreds of thousands of things I worry about on a regular basis.

I know how you feel...sorta. i like this guy, mike...and he's not gay, he's bi. but we talk about alot of things because i'm open minded, and he used to hook up with my ex bf cesar, but you'll find that someone. and don't kill to be straight....you are the way that you are and its not easier....no love is easy....be happy, the right person will come.

Most guys do not want to show they are gay because preasure comes with it. People will turn you off etc. Now... you say you would kill to be straight?? well... why not try..

Cause i'm too lazy.

Hey. I watch Oprah and i LOVE Madonna... I'm weird too!
I know, I couldn't really care about people coming out... It's hard either way.

One of my old friends was gay and in the end he dropped me because i was straight so it can go both ways.
But i can see where you're coming from and it shouldn't be so hard
The only thing you can do is hold your head up high and be proud of who you are.

I want to be happy, but I want to be me...

Yet, it seems I know who I am, but I treasure friendship over love.

When you don't care about love, is friendship more important?

Im glad that more and more people are become more overt about their sexuality, i love gay males becusei know they wont try jump in bed with you also they tell you what you look lik and be honest lol. I think you need to trust your instinct and just let yourself sail through life, if you orce love it ill e wrong. Sooner or later the right boy will come looking for you i promise its called fate :D

xxx alex xxx