What would you do??

Its been 2 years today since I was put into a mental hospital for suicide attempts and drug and alcohol abuse. Altough I am not happy with myself I am still here and doing a bit better.

Through thick and thin my best friend has stood beside me and now I am scared for her health and well being. She is going through some tough times at the moment and yesterday she asked for me to supply her with some drugs and I fear that she is hurting herself by cutting. Coming from someone who has been through hell I don't want to see her do damage to herself, or her body!

I am faced with the problem of either supplying s**t to my friend and watch her screw up her life like I did or tell her no and lose her friendship, and see her go elsewhere and screw up her life....I don't want to lose her....but I also don't want to get back into the world of drugs...what would you do???

Any suggestions would be very helpful

Thanks

Wow, you're really in a difficult situation. I think what I would do would be to talk to her and ask her why she feels the need to take drugs. I also think that if you explained to her how your feeling it might help her to realise that she probably doesn't want to go through what you've already gone through. If you have suspicions about her cutting herself then although it's a tricky topic to talk about you might want to ask her. If she is cutting then she probably needs someone to help and a shoulder to cry on and I can tell that you care for your friend heaps and correct me if I'm wrong but I don't think you would mind being that person. Well that's my advice, basically to talk to her. Hope things turn out for the best
xx

If you give her drugs it'll just end up hurting the both of you. Talk to her, tell her what you told us, explain why you can't give them to her. That's what I'd do.. but easier said than done I guess.
Good luck, hope it all turns out alright

Thanks heaps guys it has helped hearing your suggestions, I still don't know what I am going to do I want to help but I don't want to see her go more downhill than she already is! And Adam, my first instinct was to say no to her, but my fear is that she is going to find it elsewhere!

I agree with Adam, if you give her drugs and she ends up killing herself, then you will that to live with the rest of your life. I know it's hard, thinking about losing a friend but at least saying no, you might have a chance on down the road with her. I know what you are going through, I attempted to kill myself to ,but I wouldn't do it again. I would feel better knowing I lost a friend, by not giving in to there needs for drugs. Then to go through life thinking I helped kill that friend.

That's a difficult situation...But I suggest not giving her the drugs under any circumstance...Have you tried having a heart to heart talk with her and expressing your feelings???

I sat down with her today and had a heart to heart and she told me that she was sorry for asking and to forget about it. I told her that I wasn't giving her a definate answer as to giving her the drugs but I was leaning towards "no", I also told her that I can't forget about it and I am going to help...at the moment thats all I can do!!!
Thanks heaps for your suggestions it has made me think clearly...thank-you :)