Is My Life Over?

It seems that now no one wants me anymore. My mom says she can't deal with me, and every time i go to my grandma's house, she always ends up sending me home. With my mom being abusive i don't go. i have every right and reason of why i do what i do. it's a shame, that i don't want to go home. Just thinking about going home, makes me so sad and depressed, it's weird. Sometimes i just wish that when i go home i can go home to a quiet house, where's there's peice and not chaos. I'm tired of being the parent. I taka care of a new born baby, go to school, worry about my girlfriend and boyfriend, and take care of a 3 year old, and a twelve year old, while my mom lays on her back and yells at me for things i have no control over. These are her kids not mine. Sooner or later my life will be over if it's not already.

I also fear going home, although our problems are quite different, they share the same intensity. All I can say is keep ploughing on buddy, you gotta trust that blind faith that there's a light at the end of the eternal tunnel. Good luck, find belief even in the darkest times.

Japanese proverb:

"Fall seven times, stand up eight"

When your Mom sends you out, go for a walk..let her cool down, go back and don't bother her. She is obviously stressed. I've been in the situation of an abusive parent before, it doesn't mean that your life is over, you will make it through it. You need to talk to someone and get your feelings out. A counsellor or a friend.

You worry about your girlfriend and boyfriend? You have two lovers? ...

They are her kids, but they need a good role model in their life, so be a good role model for them. Don't mind your Mom to the point where your feeling like your life is ending.

Life isn't over until your heart beats for the last time. until then, live the life you have to the best of your ability. when you face adversity never give in, face it head on, 'defiant to the last'. despite anything anyone says, you will know the truth about how you persevered. you will have something to be proud of. this is harder by far than giving up. don't let the actions of others ruin your life. just my opinion though, take whatever you can from it.

I agree your life isnt over....you got to live to the best of your ability..and cool down at time like them...you will get through it hunnie xxx

Yes i have two lovers, but my boyfriend came first, and then my girlfriend. I realized that we were feeling each other and we got together.

Did u say you had a boyfriend and a girlfriend

And having a boyfriend AND a girlfriend is going to HELP your problems go away more? No. You need to have a boyfriend OR a girlfriend, not both. It's not fair to either of them. It's cheating.

You should have broken up woth your boyfriend before you got together with your girlfriend.

14 with two lovers?

Alright......that's not odd or anything. Maybe you should make up your mind. Lush(^) is right.

Boy and girl?
eh?