Hurt and broken when friendship bites back

My mate left me to die, and now my pack (friends group) is out to get her. I had a different mate, before her, and she was evil, but is now good, and took me back, but my pack wants me to stay away from her even though she was there to see me through my worst times, I don't know what to do. I am slowly slipping further into myself, my friends are all mad at me for not listening because they don't want to see me hurt, but it's them fighting that's hurting me now more than my mate is. I don't know how to make it stop, and I'm hurting myself over and over again trying to end the pain, but only causing more that's physical. Any advice on how to stop this vicious circle would be greatly appreciated.

I understand the first thing and the second, but to the thrid, NEVER! I would protect each person in my pack with my life, no matter how many times they hurt me, but if they hurt one of my friends, they are gone. If my pack hurts my mate, the entire pack would be destroyed, and they know it. My mate only hurt me, nobody else, so I will continue to protect her. Until it kills me.

As to the leaving me to die, I am a cutter, She knew a betrayal would make me hurt myself, but she turned her back on me anyway. so I took it out on my arms.

Seek professional help. Self Harming is a serious problem and needs to be addressed NOW.

Professionals only make me want to die more. at least the pieces of my heart are patched up and put back together again.