Worried about everything x

Okay maybe it'll help if i say a bit about everything..

Um i currently go to tech, and thats not the problem, its everything thats happening.. I have this girlfriend.. well ex-girlfriend, but we still love each other, i think. But she goes out all day, weekends and weekdays, for the whole day, and i never get to talk to her [it was a long-distance relationship]. The only time she allows me to call is 10pm, and thats only for 5 minutes, and when she does all she talks about is one of her male friends. I hate it, but i call her because i don't want to not talk to her. It drives me mad..

Also, i'm worried that i'm going to fail my coursework and not go to university, and end up being a bum in life and not doing anything worthwhile.. i'd rather die than see that happen..sometimes i think that would just be easier, to disappear.. And my friend keeps piling all of her worries onto me, but that doesn't bother me too much, its just the way she does it, she sounds so fake and it makes me question the friendship i have with people.. i wish they'd letme have a say in anything.. that maybe i could say what's bothering me instead of them always going on about everything..

I'm sorry if this is a waste of topic, I just really needed to say this to someone and i'm really close to cutting so i hope someone could help..

Chris xx

Hey chris
I'm currently in yr 10 at high school and im starting to feel the pressure of passing and marks. Sometimes it feels like the world is just a bunch of dollar signs and numbers. And I hate those kind of 'friends' who only think of themselves when you obviously need to tlak or say something.

My advice is to get ahead. You love this girl, right? Well then you need to tell her that and tell her where you two stand and tlak to her about whats bothering you. And this '5 minute limit' i think you need more time....and if she wants to argue just stop calling for a while.

She's a woman she'll miss the attention...

lol
:)
- Emma xx

(good luck)

Lol.. but Emma thats the point, i think she'll just distract herself if she misses the attention with her friends.. Lets just say that of them all, the guys of her "group" fancy the hell out of her, so they're happy to spend as much time as she likes with them. Its a pity, i think i might need to take some space away from her, even if she seems perfect.

Thanks xx