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hey i want some advice plz. I am adopted and recently my biological mom came back into my life. Now when she did this i hadn't seen or heard from her for about 12 years. I figured that i would give her a chance, well that didn't work out very well. She was nice and it was really good for me at first but then she started all this cra* about how sad and depressed she was. It was like i wasn't even there or alive. I could not stand it. Then she dissapred and came back a couple of weeks later and i was dumb and let her back in my life. Well this time i am done. I told her i was done with all her crap and bull$hit and i didn't want to hear from her untill i was atleast 18. Well se acted all heart broken and everything to make me feel bad, and it worked untill i called her back about 2 minets latter, when she answered the phone she was laughing and was telling everyone about what had just happened. I was like whatever. I didn't even say ne thing i just hung up. Now i am writing a story on this called 18. I am botteling up everything and it's causing me writing block. I feel like dying every day and the only thing that stops me from killing my self is my teachers. They help me get through everyday and they are the only thibng that keeps me alive. I think that if i can get all of this out on paper then maybe i can get over it.
Well thanks for listing and if you have ne advice or commites PLEASE post.
Love always
PK
PS this heped just "talking about it with you guys"
Thanks love ya lots

oh my god amg,
not everything is about how i can let you guys in on my life. You r the only one who could even come close to understanding me and yeah i am pushing you away but i don't want ot gwet hurt again. If i get hurt again it will be because i hurt me. I can control it if i don''t let you guys get close. Last time i lert u get close everything exploded. I can't handdel this. I really want to die, and i am sorry, you guys keep me alive to but everytime smothing happens you don't notice. You maybe do but you don't say anything. I don't know if i want to stay alive or if i want to die. But my parents aren't making things better, and every one of the teachers at school think i have perfict parents. I don't. they think there is no reason for me to be depressed. I don't even know if i am or not. but what i do kow is every night i pry for god not to let me wake up. All this crap with melinda is screwing up my life and i am not sure if i can take it much longer. she won't stay away, and believe it or not the only one who notices if i am upset and will make me talk is Shawn and I don't know why i can talk to him and not you guys but i can't talk to you guys, I don't know i am soo confused. i am so sorry but i just don't know. does anyone else have any advice? If you do plz post on here.
love Always
PK

PK-
I know how you feel. I actually tried to kill myself once. My best friend whose like my sister was really worried the next day. I was late for school and she told me she was freaking out because the night before I told her I was thinking about it. You should try talking to your friends some more. They might not be able to help as much as you would like them to be able to, but I think they could help you feel better.
Don't give up!
Cassie

i don't know what you r talking bout. You can over come any thing at leats you have friends who actually talk to you and take your side. Look i am soo sorry if i am making you think that you need to die but that is my LASTintention. But we can't talk through this. Not on here atleast. Today you were acting like such a b-otch and it started on here. Let me tell you smothing cassi, i didn't get a chance to write about how my friends keep me alive because i was getting yelled at by my dad. So sorry if i didn't want my dad to know that i wanted to die. sorry if hat inconviences you in anyway. But when you are ready to talk i will listen if there is one thing that
every one on here has tought me it's that you have to forgive those who have hurt you and forgive your self. every one i talk to on here says to give ALL of you gguys a chance, so i am going to. but this is your last one, i cant hanndel this right now. I thought that atleast you were ther but i guess not. I gtg but talk to me 2marrow if you want a second shance.
PK

I don't kow everything that has happened between you PK and aftermath but it seems to me that you two are both fighting a battle over who feels most sorry for themselves, perhaps you should try to talk to each other about what has really happend?

I'mm sorry Im not trying to offend anyone

ok first i NEVER called you taht till today, second whats childish is you acting like a baby. 3d everyone in this school wants me to beat you as*! news flash i got you and hannah back to gether then you started to act like a bitch, you used me so get the hell out of my life and stay out! I don't care if i ever see or talk to you again. You are the first person that i trusted science the thing with my mom and you betrayed that trust, congrats! i will NEVER trust ANYONE again.
hope your happy.

I think you both need to chill out.