How do you get rid of the darkness that is taking over?

I have secrets that I'm not proud of, I have fears that are taking over, I am in pain from how much damage I caused myself after each betrayal, I try to talk about it, but people never seem to listen, I'm afraid I might be losing a part of myself each time this happens, and with each bit of pain I'm slipping further away into a new self that is cold and dangerous to everybody she comes in contact with including herself. How do I get rid of the dark me? How do I deal and move on when fear is a ten foot wall?

Hey well i know wot your goiing throught and yooh can talk to me im here for ya

love ThE BeAuTifuL DisAsTeR

I know that, but when I try to change, it's like I'd be losing a huge part of who I am, and that makes me afraid to change. When I am positive, something always gets to me and makes me go back to being negative. It's like a huge monster that has it's claws deep within my flesh, crushing the life out of me, making me not want to go on living at times, afraid to let go and move on.

Therapy. You need to talk to someone. A counselor, priest, somebody you trust who can't judge you. I mean they still will, but they're obligated to help, not judge. A really good friend might help too. More than you know.

You need to realise what happened in the past is in the past and to move on. Learn from your mistakes and make your self a better person.

I have slowly gotten through my biggest fear, and now I only have the smaller darkness to deal with. I talked to my best friend and she gave me some helpful advice. I also talked to my social worker and she's helping me get through the darkness as well. the demons within are slowly vanishing into the light.