I am grateful for guidance. Thank you.

I am very saddened by a boy, a boy whom I adore. Even though I think the world of him, I am nothing. He treats me like I am worthless. He used to love me. He used to not think this way about me, but I am afraid that he does now.

I call him sometimes, but he will never answer. I have become very acquainted to his voice mail machine. Last night, I called to say hello on a different telephone, but he could not reach his phone quickly enough. But out of respect for a stranger, out of respect for anyone but me, he called back immediately. He didn't know it was me.

Then he hung up.

I do not hate him. I love him. He has done many hurtful things to me, but I know he didn't mean to.

I wrote a letter to him because someone close to him has died. I felt so sad that I could not hold him. I felt so sad that I couldn't help him. I tried to write selflessly, to show him that he is my friend still and that I love him. But I do not know if this will do any good.

I am not trying to win him back like I used to. I am not trying to make him feel guilty.

I just want him to know that I care about him. I want him to know that he is my friend and that I love him.

Should I send the letter?

Here's the deal -

If he's treating you like you're nothing, STOP trying to communicate with him. I've been there ... and by the continuous phone calls and attempts for him to notice you, you look obsessive.
Stop making so much effort, he obviously doesn't appreciate you or what you have to offer, so find someone who will appreciate you and the things you can give.

This guy's a jerk ... you may think you love him, but really, you love the person he USED to be. You don't love who he is now. You need to let go.

Yea i agree almost a stalker, and if he treats you like crap and pretty much ignores you. Then just give up, if you guys were meant for each other things would have happended already, dont waste your life on one guy, find another who will treat you with honesty and respect.

"If you 'guys' are 'meant' for each other." NOBODY is MEANT for each other, it's if you love that person, so if you think you're "meant" for them, you don't wait for it to fall into place, nothing happens if nobody does anything. If I were you on this specific situation though, I'd give up, he doesn't care, so why should you?