This sucks

So I started cutting a few weeks ago, and like 4 days into it one of my friends found out and told on me, which is good. But I've started again because it seems like no one really knows what to say about it. even my best friends say I'm stupid for doing it, but they don't really understand what it takes for me to do it, and how little saying im stupid helps. I got mad at one of my friends because she told me she had been thinking about telling (after my first friend told) and I got mad because she doesnt understand why i would ever consider it, she's never even considered it (my friend who told has done it plenty of times)

until this year i've never cried at school but now it seems like atleast once a week i am, and always for the same reason. and then its just like no one notices theres something wrong wiht me, the other day in 3rd period, i just sat there sawing away at my arm and no one said a word!

I'm not really sure what the point of this was... maybe because I need someone to talk to, maybe to advise you to be careful about how you talk to one of your friends who cuts themself.

--Casey

hey hun i know how u feel.
u know they r only trying to help, but they just dont know how. i have been cutting for 2 years and in the whole time, out of everyone that has found out, only one person has actually tried to really help me. sure, everyone else tried to help, but tellin me how dumb it is does not help AT ALL. if anything it makes u feel worse. most people notice but dont say a word, or they say i should stop but dont even try to help me stop. it really infuriates me!
about a month ago, i was sittin next to a friend at school in english and he watched as i carved someone initials in my leg.. he didnt say a word to stop me, he actually gave me the thumbs up.. i know its wrong but i cant help it, its addictive and i didnt really need anymore encourage to do it...
anyways i dunno i think ive just rambled on. if u need to talk im here :)
tanya xoxo