a letter to my best friend plz tell me wat ya think

i really need ya help with this one! i wrote this letter for my best friend.

I really don’t know how to say this so if it all comes out wrong then I guess I’m sorry.ive been wantin to tell you this for ages but never been quite sure how or what to say.It took a while to realise but now i have. ive fallen for you!! i know its wrong and i shouldnt feel this way but i do and i cant change the way im feeling right now.I wish i could. I know you don’t feel the same way about me and that’s ok I guess cause I never really expected u to feel something more. Maybe there has always been a part of me that hoped you felt a little something more for me but I realised in the past few weeks that the person who I thought this about had changed and I realised there was no chance what so ever with you, so I guess I just have to deal with that. You probably don’t wanna be hearing this and I’m not sure that I want to be telling you but I can’t go on feeling like this. I don’t think you realise just how much I’m actually hurting because of you’ll admit that yeah I’m crazy about you and I need you so much but what I don’t need is for you to treat me like a piece of shit that you can pick up when it is convenient for you I know I don’t deserve that! I honestly thought that you were the one person who wouldn’t treat me like Dave but I realised you’re exactly the same as him. Everything I do isn’t enough for you, I cant be the person you want I know that but I have done everything possible to be someone who wud be there for you when u needed someone n I honestly thought u appreciated it.... I was wrong. You honestly couldn’t care less and that really hurts knowing that really cant lose you you’re the one person I cling onto hoping that you will love me. Id do anything for you to just love me I’m willing to be hurt by u because of how much I need you in my life. Maybe I’m stupid for feeling this way but what am I supposed to do? I fell involve with you and i wish i could stop these feelings but i cant.Ive spent ages telling myself i dont love you and i dont need you but the more i did the more i realised i couldnt live without you and the more i fell.Its kinda got to the point now where im actually starting to hate you.I dont wanna hate you because i love you to pieces and you mean the world to me its just ive taken all i can from you.Im not that strong n i think youve pretty much pushed me to the dge n im at breaking point.Im sorry im guessin if ur reading this then your really confused i know this is sudden n its a lot to put on someone but its how im feelin. Im sory i fell inlove with you i really am.Like is ed if i cud change it i wud but i cnt so its somethin i ahve to live with now untill i have the strength to let go of you!! Love you always.

sorry its long.

Im not sure what to do about this.do i send it?? If is end it is it possible that he is not gonna wanna no and me n our friendship will be ruined??? im so confused i dnt no wat to do!! help if ya can n let me no wat ya think bout the letter.Thanx