Why Does Life Suck And People Hurt Other People?!?!?!?!?

Why do people always have to hurt other people just because their different or don't think the same?!? People always seem to love to start stupid F*#%ed up rumors about people that spread and then people start to believe them and it all gets out of hand *GGRRRR*
My boyfriend is having to go through the whole court thing for something he didn't do *long story that I really don't want to talk about* and he just broke up with me sorta *said that he couldn't ask me to be with a guy that has so many issues but that we should still stay good friend and that hopefully after this is all cleared up things will be better*. I can't prove wither he choose to do this *but he said that it was the hardest thing to do* because he's really protective and would do that if he thought that it would make it all easier on me or because he thought that the trial wouldn't go good, or if they made him do it =(
I already told him that I love him and always will and that I'm not going anywhere and will wait no matter how long it takes *even if it goes bad*
I'm so scared and depressed right now =( I already have depression problems and am taking stuff for it but it doesn't make it go away it just makes it so I can handle the ups and downs a little better and I tend to get suicidal at times and after dealing with this for the last 1 and 1/2 months I just really don't know what to do anymore =( I was so happy, I've always had to see and live with the darker side of the world and had started believing that there was no "bright side" and then he came along and showed me that there was good people in the world that don't live to hurt everyone around them.
I'm scared though because what if the fact that most people would call me unstable is making things worse for him? I know it looks bad from the courts point of view because he actually has most of the town supporting him and most of them don't know me and because I come from a troubled family with a father and 3 brothers having a history and a sister that has a record because of her abusive ex-husband =(
I just don't want to be in pain anymore and I feel like I'm hurting him because of my family and...just the way I am and I couldn't live with that =( But I can't just end my life because then he'd blame himself and I'd end up hurting all the people I know love me =( His biggest fear has always been that he wasn't good enough for me, that he didn't deserve me and that I was going to leave him and hurt him like everyone else has before me, no matter how much I told him that I wasn't going to go anywhere because there's nowhere else I want to be and sure the hell no one else I want to be with =P When he told me that we should just be friends for now he said that I deserved soo much better then him and that there was a guy out there that would make me happy =( I flat out told him that there wasn't anyone out there looking for me because he's the only one for me and that it didn't matter what he said, I'd wait for him and wouldn't believe that he meant a word of it till he told me to my face not in an email *since it was court ordered that we couldn't see eachother right now*.

I'm sorry that =( I'm just blathering and needed to get it all out =(

And to anyone thats just going to tell me not to wait or that I'm to young to feel this kind of love or that I need to move on and forget him....Please don't post on here ^_^ I would love some poistive import and how to keep going and hold on and stay strong for both him and me because I'm really lost and in pain and the depression has set in so hard that I'm not wanting to eat again *I have eating disorders also*

*trying not to cry* It is hard and things just got worse =( He actually broke up with me now and what makes it worse is that theres this 14 year old girl that I happen to hate that made herself one of his close friends *I mean he seems to tell her EVERYTHING* and shes the one thats been spreading all the rumors about me to everyone and then on Monday *the day after he broke up with me in a email since I can't see him* she walked up to a friend of mine *Vette* thats more like a little sister to me *Vette and this other girl used to be friends before all of this happened* and told her that my boyfriend broke up with me then turned right around and asked her out and she said yes *he'll be 18 in October* but I can't prove it since most people who know her know that shes a lier, cheater *shes cheated on 3 of her bf's* and she cheats on everything else, a backstabber and you could probably add a whore to the list also *since theres more then one way to be one* =(
So I don't know if he broke up with me because he was just so lonely and wanted someone that he could actually hold *although why he'd choose her I don't know*but in his last email he said that I had my whole life ahead of me and that this was his mess and he didn't want to drag me through it also =( I told him that we'd just stay friends if thats what it takes for him to be happy and feel better but that I CHOOSE to go through this and feel what he does and I CHOOSE to still love him and go through this pain because he's worth all the pain I've gone through and much more.
I really feel that we're meant to be together and I know that 2 weeks ago he felt the same way so...*sigh*...I've just got to find a way to hold on and like I told him...I choose to wait no matter how long and if things go bad or good I choose to wait and hope that after all of this is over that I can be with him again.
I just love him so much and I guess that being friends is better then losing him completely =(
Rhea

Hey life doesn't suck at all. :)
I'm liking how it's goin'.

I think people hurt other people because they are hurt themselves. and by hurting others it makes them feel better. I used to ask myself why we hurt others and I know now and I try not to hurt the people that have hurt me. Shanik

To be honest, at this point being friends probably ISN'T better than losing him completely. Sounds weird, but as far as healing goes it might work out better that way.

I think the important thing to keep in mind is a sort of general life-time kind of perspective on things. You're going to live a LONG time in comparison to the feelings you have right now. Life is so transient... do you want to spend any of it moping about this and that? People have suffered through breakups, sadness, discrimination, and much much worse for so long it almost doesn't mean anything anymore. It is the human condition, the universal constant, and it isn't so much sad as there. When Angelina says 'suck it up,' I agree with her. I mean, I'm saying it less bluntly, but the meaning is the same. Just understand that you're going to feel bad for a bit, but don't sit around trying to prolong misery. Life sucking would mean it's worse than normal. Life is 'bad' compared to paradise, but it is was it is, and living is what you're going to have to get used to doing.