Belimia

I was belimic. yesterday i made myslef throw up because i felt overwhelmed with life. i felt like my sadness was toxic, and i had to get it out of my body.

i cry because i am empty ans in the world someone is too.

6/12/07

i threw up all last year, because i felt as if all the horrible emotions were rotting in the middle of my body. and when i threw up i'd feel empty.

i went to see my doctor and todl him how i think i may be on the path of belimia agian he told me to tell someone to watch me.

don't any of you guys feel tired, with evrything?

No last year i threw up at least everyday.

If you throw up once that doesnt make you bulimic. I think you are just seeking attention. And maybe perhaps you should seek attention from your parents. and if not. maybe a school therapist, because over cyber space, we can not truly hold your hand and help you, all we can do is say "ooo sorry, maybe you should stop before you injure your well being."
how do we know you will take the advice to heart and use it? we don't
so yeah...

thats what i think.

Hey i know how you feel, i was bulimic too...i threw up twice a day and sometimes three times a day, its not healthy and you should stop.

Ok, if you throw up everyday and you did it yesterday but not today, it's not past tense.
if you have been making yourself throw up, you have or are on the way to having an deating disorder.
you cant just not do it one day and be like oh yeah yesterday i was bulimic.
doesnt work like that peaches.
trust me on that one.

Well i saw my doc yestrday

It went good. i still feel lonley now that its summer. i mean all my friends are gone on vacation. and even when i am with people i still feel lonley.

Life Sucks, i need to accept it. it's going to be hard.

So it is for attention?

No i get too much of that already. i hate it, my dad treat me like i am an angel and he doesn't know this turmoil is inside of me.

So its for attention. STOP seeking attention. if you know something is wrong with you why didn't you bring it up to your doctor? Or tell your dad. hey look....?

seriously.
your being stubborn.

I know. but read the other posts! it's not for ATTENTION. I MEAN IF U HAV ANY EMPATHY, YOU'D PONDER EACH DAY IF ITS ACTUALLY WOTH WAKING UP! IT SUX TO WANT TO DIE!

AND ON TOP OF THAT I HAVE THIS ROTTING FEELING IN MY STOMACH THATS INTOXATING MY BODY.

it all hurts

So your bulimic because you want to die??
hmmm i do not understand you at all
and you said your also bulimic because your lonley and your friends are away....so its for attention

Ok ~me~ you can just shut up! you have no right to keep saying that. my BEST friends is bulimic and anorexic. and that is just this year. sometimes its not for attention. sometimes everything can add up to be too much for one person to handle. trust me. in 8th grade, she almost got taken away from her parents because she was raped and started cutting. but when you are suffering from something like bulimia or everything in your life just adds up to be too much, you just have to find someone who understands you and you can open up to. that was what my friend did. no one knows what it is like, even me. but i know how much it hurts when someone who needs help desperatley and can't find it.

Wow...I would never be able to make myself throw up like that...I dunno maybe I am just chicken but Bulemia comes hand in hand with other disorders...MORE THEN 60% is not doing it for attention so for the people that think it is you need to get that thought out of your head...Its like cutting or any thing else...Do you know of anyone that drinks for attention and end up dying because they are just doing it for attention!!!...I'm sorry and I don't mean to sound rude but it is wrong of someone to accuse someone of hurting themselves for attention without knowing them!...Thats what I think

I'm sorry that you feel that way about yourself...But you know you are not...You are a good person and I know that without having to meet you...Because everyone deep down is a good person and I know this sounds cheesy but its true I hope you get to feeling better! I have faith in you!

Jamie please calm down. I'm sorry to hear about your friend but please do not argue you guys.

Now Melinda, i suffer from bulimia myself so i know exactly how it feels. And loneliness has also been a contributor for my ED. And no i dont think this is for attention - not in the sort people are making it sound like anyway. But maybe its attention in the way that you crave people around you. Maybe this loneliness has made you feel so left out and forgootten that you feel like you want to do soemthing about it. i think this is the type of attention people are talking about. I mean not the kindof attention you get for dying your hair blue.
Attention people immediately think of it as a bad thing - its not. Its soemthing we all want at soem point in our life.

Anyways it sounds like loneliness was a BIG contributor for this eating disorder. So why dont you try and conqur this lonelinesS? Your friends are away - so why dont you go soemwhere as well? Or how about joining a club or soemthing to keep you occupied and meet new people? This may help you.

Whatever happens bulimia is NEVER the answer. It may seem like it but jus tthink about the affects it has. You really want to die making yourself throw up? Becuase it can and does happen. Dead in front of the toilet with a bit of sick next to you... grusem image i know. But true non the less.

Like i said i can relate to you. If you need to talk feel free to PM me.

x

I know what it feels like to want to die, but punishing yourself is not going to make it feel better. You need to go to a therapist and talk to someone.

Jamie ..ive been bulimic and anorexic too

Well done guys. Honestly, this post was originally a plea for help. Its quite funny, you are all
(excusing the few caring souls) continually describing this problem as an 'attention' thing, yet you've done nothing other then attempt to make it about yourselves!
Now THAT my friends deserves an applause.
Are we all that honest to god emotionally cripppled that we turn others problems into our own spotlight.
Think about it.

Now to Melinda........ I noticed you havn't posted on this thread in a while. Is everything ok?
How is your situation?

Wow, i love you ^ you have a very good point. just because somebody is posting a thread and says they made themselves throw up the day before doesn't mean they are seeking attention! and realize everytime you tell them that they are just seeking attention you are making the situation worse! if you don't want to help somebody, then don't, but don't sit there and make it worse. "i've been anorexic and bulimic"...good for you, but you are not the only one, realize that. she wanted somebody to talk to. maybe she came on here thinking there were people who could understand what she was going through. but instead she got you guys making everything worse. she USED to be bulimic, she stopped for a bit, but she started up again. that does not mean she was doing it for attention. it means she is getting sucked back into it. now that i am done ranting about you heartless jerks...
Melinda i understand that you want everybody to leave you alone, but maybe staying around people after you eat maybe that will help you stop. (i have never been bulimic, so i am doing the best i can here.) realize there are people who love and care about you and don't want to see you hurt yourself. i'm glad you went to the doctor though, kudos <3 maybe talking to somebody on a regular basis will help. if you EVER need to talk, i'm here. i know i don't exactly know about the whole bulimia thing, but i can listen and give the best advice i can. good luck sweetie <3

SHUTDOWN!!!
Interesting, no one has posted since our points were made.

Melinda If ya wanna talk PM me.

Same goes for you all, I have my own crap going on so maybe I can help??? Either way, I can listen!

All the best xo

Congrat's to me i have not thrown up in one month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Keep it to yourself, and don't bring pointless posts back to the top.

Last summer i was belimic for about 2 weeks and then i went anerexic for about 4 weeks and was in the hospital for about 3 weeks because of it so you should really start or you will become like i was!

My best friends sister was anorexic when she was 12 she got down to 28kg which is about 56pounds. absolutly tiny. it totally destroys not only yourself but the people around you. congrat's on not throwing up for a month but try and get some help about it so you don't relapse. you don't want to end up in hospital hurting all those people around you...

Gwd work Melinda, the fact that you have tried to quit means that even if you fail you CAN do this.
I know you will be alright.

To 'BANGBANG'
What the hell? She started this thread.