Is It bad that i wanna feel sad.

I have over come depression and i got away from everyone who made me feel crap and made me do stupid things and i started to get on with my life.

But now i am at a good college, I have amazing new friends and everything is going okay.

But there is this feeling inside of me that wants to be sad. It makes life easier. and i can justifiy hurting myself if i am sad. My head is telling me that if i am happy when the bad things evantually work there way back to me i won't be able to cope because i was up there being happy and not already being sad.

I mean it sounds so stupid but i need to talk about this. I need to know someone feel the same. That someone sits there at night and would rather be sad than happy. I mean i do enjoy being happy but i would rather be sad. I don't have to try to be anything. I can just be by myself and i don't have to worry about saying the wrong thing or hurting anyone.

This is also a way for me to rant right now as i need to de stress.

Any thoughts?? apart from the fact that i am probably crazy.

Well i don't know how to give you advice on the situation. But I will tell you one thing. I am not happy and many people ask me "how can we help you get better" And my honest answer to that is, "I don't want to get better"

So, trust me, you are not the only one. In fact, I thought I was the only one. Cause when I sometimes tell people I don't want to get better, they yell at me and tell me I am stupid and crazy.

Glad to know there are other people who live in my world.

LOL I guess u two are happy now. LOL...
Jk... look you guys want to be sad coz its the easiest way to live. U dont care about anything or anyone, u dont hav goals or dream. You just stay by yourself and feel misserable. what an over achiever. Life maybe hard but at least is not boring. You guys are just lazy. Get up ur butt and MAKE LIFE HAPPEN!!

Excuse me, but it is very rude for you to say we're lazy. That is far from the truth. I have spent my entire life working my butt off. I started working since I was 15 years old and haven't stopped. There was a year of my life I worked 60 hours a week. As well as working .. I have attended college. I have done all of this alone. No one has helped me get where I am today. I am very proud of that.. because I haven't had to depend on anyone. Which means Ive had to work hard. I have been everything BUT lazy.

And do not EVER say that I dont care about anything or anyone. How dare you. The reason I am the way I am, is BECAUSE I care.

I dont have goals or dreams?!

Yea well why don't you find out what it's like to actually have amazing goals and dreams and have them ripped out from underneath of you.

DO NOT speak of things you know nothing about.

Alex, I do not know if you will like this type of music... but this song always makes me smile and feel a bit uplifted. Even if only for a moment. :-)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ls7ila3srzI

How pathetic, you're trying to say how dare you to her. She's right, what's the point coming on here trying to justify your 'hard work'? If it was truly hard, you wouldn't be boasting about it now, or using it as some petty excuse for your 'internal pain.'

You're not happy, you're still sad. Whatever you think you solved, you obviously didn't. Either that, or you ARE too lazy to think about people and anybody but yourself, and that basically means you're selfish, lazy and attention seeking. Sorry to break it to you but you just love the attention, and whether you think you get it or not, being sad for no reason is what that is about.

You were either never 'cured' of depression, or you have a small person syndrome.

I am not sad for no reason.

Bangbang, you seem to think very highly of yourself, maybe you are a doctor, if you are i feel bad for your patients, but i highly doubt you are a doctor, cuz you dont seem to know a single thing about depression. You dont even seem to know how to talk to people. Maybe before you tell people out you should get to know them. you should consider taking courses like intro to psychology. I am not saying you and koko didnt have bad lifes, i have no idea how your lifes were but however they were it seems like they have made you people haters and the only way you guys feel better about yourself is by putting others down. It is cuz of people like you that a lot of people are depressed.

She asked why and I told her, I didn't put her down and if that's what you call 'putting down' and half the cause for your 'depression' you must be overly sensitive.

I'm not a doctor, my life is fine with its ups and downs and I hardly see how my life has any relevance to hers. I don't feel good about myself by putting people down, in fact, I'd feel worse off than I would've done in the first hand if I was down, I was being honest.

I don't need some petty reassurance by insulting other peoples problems to make my life seem better, that'd be a waste of time.

So really, I don't think highly of myself in any cases. I don't have this huge self esteem that makes me think I qualify to give a name to a problem, I was just giving my input.

Now don't base this around me, because that's just irrelevant, this is about the thread starter and not me. You seem to think the only way you can justify your depression is blaming it on other people but hey, I'm not complaining.

Oh and p.s. I wasn't talking to you in the second paragraph, whoever said "I'm not sad for no reason."

P.p.s. I'm not putting her down; she does that enough for herself already.

Look Im sorry if whatever I said sounded a little hard. believe it or not i do know hoew it feels to be depressed and all i did was tell you guys what help me get better from it. this is a forum, its my opinion.
I was a lonely,depressed and more stuff than that. I hated being sad and lonely and one day I decided to F%$## everyone and that I wouldnt let my life pass.
It helped me and I thought it would help you.

BTW I am not nor would ever be a hater. I love to help ppl. Plz dont label me.

Ok forgive me if I came off as mean and rude as well. It is your opinion, and thats fine. Like i said in the other discussion... its just not fair to judge someone and call them lazy. That's not helping someone. That's putting them down. There ARE some people who can change their way of thinking and change their lives around. People like you. And that IS wonderful. But there are other people who just find it harder to do that. And it isnt necessarily their fault. It is their brain lying to them. I typically don't like to refer to depression as a disease... but SOME depression generally IS a disease. Some people are born with it. Unfortunately. And it is not always easy to fix. I wish it were.

so im sorry if I got upset so easily..your opinions and thoughts do not upset me as much as others.

All I meant by lazy, is what she was asking and it could be one of the reasons. She hasn't even responded lately so we still have nothing to go on. It is either that she has not solved her problems, or a new one has come along. Either that, or she doesn't want help so she has an excuse to be sad around everybody and get attention, OR she has no strength or willpower to get help.

I still disagree with you. But I was talking to Krazikoko

You disagree with me? LOL, what is there to disagree with? I gave like, the ONLY options why she'd want to be sad, and you think you actually disagree? How? You could've put some explanation or something. And I responded again, that doesn't mean I was directing it at you.

I didn't put an explanation because I do not have the time for it. Nor do I need to put one anyway. Did I say I disagree with what you just said? No. I simply stated I disagree with you in general. Such as your past comments. If you're entitled to an opinion, than so am I.

Disaagreements its part of life. just let it go or...take it to a judge..

I'm the same with Alex and Spiral. Shocked myself to find a thread like this.

To Krazikoko. I actually have been addressed as the laziest person most of my friends have ever known so its kinda funny how you say that wanting to be sad is an excuse to be lazy. At the same time however I was a former AP student in highschool, have played sports for several years of my life, been in dozens of clubs and community activities, and have held down my current job for almsot a year. I can confidently say that even though I appear lazy I've done alot with my life to this point. This obviously isn't an issue of laziness. *sidenote* Its insensitive to call someone lazy for being sad.

Numerous life experiences brought me through a great ordeal of depression and back and I frequently find myself just wanting to be sad. I guess on the outside this can be seen as just 'laziness'. One of my motivations for taking psych classes in highschool and college was to understand why I was feeling a need to be sad. The only answer I could come up with was chemical imbalances in my body. Our body changes depending on our mood and for those that have gone through prolonged depression theres a chance your body is so accustomed to this that you've developed a need to be sad. Theres probably a pill out there for this. I'm no docter by any means. This is just my opinion.

I still feel a need to be sad alot of times and at times I wonder if this is simply me going crazy. I have no problems with telling myself that its my secret little mental disorder. And after seeing that I'm not alone in this I'm more confident that it is a mental disorder.

This is a discussion board, meaning if you're just going to come out with your opinion, you should pretty much put a reason behind it. So really, don't bother saying anything at all unless you're going to try and justify it. That's just a waste of everybody's time. And if you don't disagree with what I said, when the only thing in general to agree with me is what I said, then how can you disagree with me in general? Make some sense, you're only entitled to an opinion if it can actually be seen as an opinion, and yours right now, just doesn't.

Dee oh ee ess enn APOSTROPHE tee. Doesn't.