To many changes.

The last couple months have been really hard for me.i swore that things couldn't get worse,but of course they did.first my boyfriend got a different job & moved an hour away from me,which isn't far i know.but when someone is your best friend & you spend almost every waking hour with them,and it changes to seeing them once a week,its hard.plus he works until 2:30 in the morning.so i never get to see him at night,and when i do see him he's so tired.

another thing,one of my friends shot himself on june 4th.its almost a month ago,but it still feels like yesterday.no matter what i do,i can't seem to get away from it.everything reminds me of the people that left me.

now my mom is being really protective,cuz she doesn't want me to stress out & get depressed again.she won't let me go out at night or see my boyfriend a lot.idk why,but she seems to just want to have me all to herself.

my brother left for the army about a month ago,and now i'm the oldest at home.theres so much stress coming down on me at once,i can't seem to handle it healthy.i've taken up smoking again,and drinking more.i'm scared its just gonna get worse.

wow,sorry it SOO long.i'd love to hear anyones advice.thanks.

I am sorry for your losses. but in looseing something you also gain simething. it may not be now but later. as for the changes, everything changes, for good or bad. but what you do is take it like medicine. in the end it just might help you.

You can only handle it best you can ..and when you cant handle it anymore..your moms there...shes seems overprotective cause she can see you heading down the road to becoming depressed again and just wants to be there for you to try and stop that ..i cant make sense of why shes stopping you seeing your boyfriend more..isit that the distance is to far and she dont want you going far on your own?..or does he come to you ..i dont know ..im truely sorry about your friend..its hard enough losing someone close..but its even harder when they take their own life ..leaves you with so many questions that will never be answered...
i think if you and your boyfriend are good together ..which from what youve said you seem to be because hes moved an hour away and your still together..so obviously you want to make a go of things..then keep at it its hard going from seeing eachother alot then not as much i know because i lived with my boyfriend at one time..and we was together 245/7 ...now he lives 45 mins away so ..yeah its hard but dont give up..

24/7* sorry spelt that wrong x message backand let me know how things are goin xx

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