Just me venting...

Just me venting...about my poor little life.

all i want is some one to talk to, about stupid little things that are meaningless mostly, at this time in my life it doesnt feel like anyone is around me for me to do that. there all off living there own life.

but i dont get it, as im ALWAYS here for them when they want to chat, go out or even hang out and talk through their problems...

...its like theres no one there who i can talk to about my problems, its making me feel bad inside, and sometimes gets me angry and annoyed, sometimes i feel like doing things to myself-but i know i would regret it after 10minuets of doing so, so i never go through with anything-plus i promised my bf that i would never do anything to hurt my self again.

my head feels like its gouing to explode as theres so much im thinking and worrying about at one time.

havnt ate or slept much in the past couple of weeks...and im so tired i just want to pick up my stuff and go, hide from everyone i dont want to talk to, to be close to the people i want to talk to.

i dont know, i think i just needed to vent or something. thanx for reading my post if you did though.

october xx

Question: If your bf cares to say that, can't you just go to him ?

I do, but sometimes its hard to get a hold of him...
...which makes me feel sad, but when i do get the chance to talk or be with him, im as happy as can be.

it just feels like every aspect of my life has something wrong with it and is slowly crumbling away...
...im finding it hard to keep everything together.

october xx

Thanx...im trying to get myself motivated, just find it abit hard sometimes.

peace
october xx