the pressure is building

hey, i know i haven't posted in a while. i'm just really busy w/school and i'm trying not to pull my hair out. i'm pretty far behind in a couple of my class and i only have 2 days of class left before finals next week. this is crunch time. it's usually right about now that i decide to quit life and start living as if i have nothing to live for. and i said that i'd never attempt suicide again b/c the next time won't be an attempt it'll be a success. but i don't wanna get that bad off. i'm still hanging in there but the pressure is building. i'm in a cretive writing class and i have to submit 3 poems by friday. i want to submit some of the ones i posted here, but i don't know which to choose b/c it's my work and i'm biased towards certain ones that might not necessarily be the best in terms of style, structure, etc. i also have a 8-10 page paper due, and i have 5-6 page paper due, and i feel like saying 'f it all.'

sigh. i just needed to rant really quickly. thx for listening. and if you could look over a few of my poems that would be so much help. thx again. ;-)

jay