Wat can i do?

Okay well i am super depressed today!i hate feeling this way! idk wat the hell iz wrong with me! ever since my best friend who happened to also b the love of my life!got killed and even before that... i've just felt sad!and idk wat 2 do n e more!i feel so alone! can n e 1 help? or am i on my own?

You're never alone, I don't feel the same way or know what you're going through, but the only way to get through this is with a high head, crying is natural, and cutting/suicide are never the answer. So as long as you don't hurt yourself whilst grieving, you're fine. Eventually you should come to accept his death, as much as you won't want to now, because there's nothing you can do about him being gone. Words like he's watching over you probably won't comfort you much, but he is. Talk to best friends or even a counsellor if you want to, get a series of DVDs that you like or some old movies you'd wanted to watch for ages, your favourite type of snack and drink and lighten up your day, OR go out and play your favourite sport with your favourite friend. Go out, stay in, whatever you wanna do.
Crying is only natural and probably healthier to let it all out than keep it in. The depression side should be gone after a while, if you want somebody to talk to though, there is always psychiatrists. Or friends online. Or your real friends. Or your parents.

xxx

I lost my best friend in a shooting . It was harder considering that he didn't live in my state anymore and was all the way across the freaking country . I found out a month after his funeral . I was completely torn . It's normal to feel sad, and alone . But know that you're not . I went and told my friends about it . They noticed there was something wrong with me and I didn't want to lie . They were there for me, and comforted me . My best teacher understood and cut me some slack . They helped me through it by letting me know that 'tho he's gone physically, he's still here . Whether I can see him, or not .
Go do some sports . Something you love . Go hang out with friends . Cry your heart out . It helps .

..__MiNDYY

Whenever i just try to hang out with anyone it doesn't matter! i can look totally happy and in the back of my mind i will be thinking about how i feel discusting 4 being raped or look down and see the scars on my arm or see a bruise from getting beat the night before or jus have a picture of him in my mind and know that i will never see him again or i will look around and see people looking at me because they know i am a total fake person who doesn't want them to know about my life i feel depressed all the time! it's not just about Eric its about everything! My life has fallen apart and im just a kid!I don't wanna keep going on sometimes the truth is the only reason i don't is because i know how much it will hurt my fam && friends and i would feel totally selfish for taking my life and not thinking bout how much it would hurt them! but u know jus going 2 sleep and not waking up wouldn't hurt as bad as the pain i feel now!And i think thats the scariest part for me!

^^^ thanx!