my life as a depressed chick

everytime i feel upset and angry i cut my self to feel better.. dont care how people think its stupid but it is me.. ive been threw so much pain and hurt i dont care what people think of me when i do these things.. makes me happy.. im not a happy person, more sad then anything..i got my reasons. poetry also makes me feel better..writing in my book does to.its like my best frend. my past has alot to do with why im the way i am.. i blame it on my parents mostly my mother and xboyfreind.. cutting is like a drug you are addicted to it.
the people who do it no what im talking about.. and its not all about killing your self.. if i want to kill myself i would of already done it.. but i have so much crap i could say and you would be shocked.....
does anyone feel like they have noone in there life that cares?you been hurt and cant get it out of your head? i have so many memories i hate it cuz they stay with you till the day you die... memories is most of the depression......

i know how you feel

I SAID THE SAME TO YOU IN YOUR MESSAGE. DID YOU GET MY EMAIL?

yeah, i got it

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(this is me on average each week)

I totally agree! Just bcoz you cut doesnt mean ur trying to kill yourself, its a way of releiving pain that if you bottle up inside, is going to make you want to suicide. People cant help their pain, and they need to work it thorugh.