Reallly depresseddd.

I have been abs. losing it lately! i dont even have the slighest clue what to do. i started cutting myself [no good] its so hard to stopp oh my gosh. and i have been taking ALOT of diet pills like 20 a day. and my sister found them so now thats all she talks to me about. ggrrr! so now i have been verryy sick. and i have been drinking alot and stealing bc i have been broke bc i just lost my babysitting job and i will be at a party or something and having a GREAT time and then i will exclude myself from everyone and not talk for the rest of the night. and i have been hating myself bc i want a boy but we are like best friends and he talks about kissing me but says he likes someone i truely hate so i think he just wants me for benefits. I NEED ADVICE SO BADDDD.1 :(

Tell your friend to piss off because the whole 'friends with benefits' thing is so lame. Second if you want to lose weight do use diet pills do it the right way by working out. And if you gain weight when working out then that's good. Muscle weights more than fat and looks better. Steal as much as you want just don't get caught. :)
Seriously though line up another job.