I'll Tell You (*my dirty little secret*) If...

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My FOURTH secret....

I suck at singing, honestly. I try, and I used to be good, but then puberty hit and my voice got all sucky.
Well, I still write songs, and it kills me just to write them, so I write the songs, then I go onto my computer and record a CD (personally) with my Oh! So horrible voice and my Oh! So sucky songs... And I actually PUT THEM on a CD, one I could play in a CD Player, and I do the cover, and I do the decorating of the CD case.... I go the whole nine yards.
I then hide the CD away, never to listen to what I record.
I don't know why I do it, but it's something I NEVER want anyone to hear... I, myself, am afraid to hear it lol!

That's my other secret... I have plenty more. Trust me.
Keep 'em flowin'!

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Good God! i say end it!

Lol, dude, these threads make me crack up. I need something positive in life!

To me it doesnt matter if you suck at singing...if its what you love doing then it shouldnt matter. =]

I uhhh, am seriously scared of rollercoasters and have no idea why... Plus they make me sick a little.

Speaking of bugs... I hate bees, wasps, hornets...
Etc etc etc...

Death from above... No thanks...

Hmm my dirty secret? god what one? lmao, ok umm I am horribly afraid of spider! I mean any other insect is fine, but spider scare the crap out of me! lol, not that bad, but lol. ^psh, I'm deadly allergic to bumble bees but I'm not scared of em.. lol. :) just spider *shudders* and if I start thinking of them, I can literately feel them crawling on me ugh I am insane lmao

That has to suck. I don't have one secret that is bad. I sing really good everyone tells me. They say I should go on American Idle. Not to show off.

I'm freaking scared of cockroaches and rats.

I have a pet rat. So be afraid! lol

Ahhh now we're not telling secrets. Unless you guys seriously don't tell people that you're afraid of spiders and things. Everyone is! Except me. ^_^ Their webs freak me out to touch but that's it. I mean sure I don't want them on me only because I'm afriad of being bitten but I've held a teranchala (eep spelling!) at a zoo type thing before. Still with it's poison and fang stuff. It was cool. I love snakes too. I use to get tics all of the time because of the amount of time I spent outside and I live in the country so yeah....Lots of trees and lots of tics and anything that sucks blood loves me. I read once that mosquitos are atracted to thin skin, pale skin, blond hair, and children. I am small like a child and have all of the above! They eat me up!

As for a secret....well it's not much of a secret but it may gross some of you guys out. Since I always took little critters from the outside in I've caught a bunch of toads before and ya know how people kiss their dogs? No not with mouth open and tounge and stuff but yes I've kissed filthy little toads before. ^_^

I'm terrified of ticks getting in my hair and me not finding them, and then one day finding a dog tick in my hair...*shudders* Ticks are fine, but dog ticks...? They make me gag a little. That's my secret 'cause I'm a country girl and I'm not supposed to be afraid of big...fat...round...gray ticks...bleh.

I think it's my fault Jennifer... But seriously...
It was a secret.

Wow most people openly say they're afraid of those things. Anything that flies, buzzes, and stings I'm afraid of but it's not a secret. Dog tics? I'll have to look that up. I thought tics were tics.

Well it was a secret because i'm afraid that people will think i'm a wuss because i don't like to get tossed around in the air by a steel contraption...

Ahh. Oh I looked up dog ticks and I just get the small black ones.

Yeah my neighbors farm. We just have a ranch that we no longer use. I just jump if anything buzzing comes by and I often make an assortment of noises. I once practically jumped out of a tree from maybe 11 feet (could be less maybe 7) just because there was a bee up there with me. I will get the heck away from them. I respect them and what they do for the earth but I just want them the heck away from me.

Mmm....A secret....I need to think of things I'd....Oh I have one. :) Alright guys so I have ADHD. Now this causes me to get very distracted from what I'm doing sometimes. For example in the morning if I'm thinking of something else (a dream, what I'm going to do, talking on the phone) while doing anything else I'll do really weird things. Things like try to put the milk jug in the microwave, almost poor my coffee in my cereal bowl. I swear if I had a cat I'd probably stick it in the freezer! lol. Well When I was little I was even worse. I could read out of a book in class and not know it. I'll be somewhere else so I'm on auto mode and I do everything for myself while my mind is really not paying attention. So sometimes I would snap out of it and realize I'm reading a book out loud for the class. Same thing any time else. Like walking in the grocery store. It would just happen. Well when I was maybe 6 or 5 we went to the pool....This is going to be bad....^_^ Well ya know how girls mostly put like a cover up on over their bathing suit? Well my mind was somewhere else so after I got that on my body was still on auto mode so I kept taking things off... :) Luckily when I asked my mom how I looked I snapped out of it by then and quickly got my suit back on. Seriously that's how badly it messes me up.

A few days ago, while horse camping, I caught the woman I was with snorting cocaine. It was awkward.

And in the middle of the night I had to go potty, so I peed literally about a foot from the tent entrance. It was dark outside and scary! No way was I going to wander further.

Jennifer, to what you said earlier, I don't go and tell people I'm afraid of spiders, lol, because they, like my idiot brothers, will hold it over me, lol. and it makes me feel like a wimp being afraid of a stupid spider :P

Don't worry I won't tell your brothers that you're afraid of spiders. :)

And about the roaches....Does this fear come from anything? As a child did you often witness people screaming at them or anything traumatizing? It sounds like you have post traumatic stress disorder over roaches! lol. Poor you. I get paranoid at times but I have gotten MUCH better than what I use to be. I use to be about 46% paranoid all of the time. I took this test that was 100s of questions long and gave me several percentages of things on me so that's how I know. Now that I have my Kip and am training myself to stop it I've probably dropped to maybe 20 something percent.

I am terrified of bugs with joints!!!! ewy!!!

Joints as in ... marijuana?

I cant swim!!!

Holly! That was my best friend through the internet's name. My boyfriend can't swim either. It's hard for me to imagin not being able to swim. It's so easy.....Well then again I can't ride a bike. They freak me out. I'm afraid they'll tilt off to the side and then I'll fall off. I'm very good with balance. I mean I can surf and stand on a woble board with one foot and my eyes closed. (Thanks to this dyslexia program I learned how to do that and not only that it made my brain grow! No literally for dyslexic kids part of it isn't fully developed) I just really don't want to fall off of one so I don't ride them.

Ah thts kool, i wud love to learn how to surf, all my mates fink im a noblet for not bein able to swim but where im getin older its jus devloped into a fear, u cud never get me near the sea lol, eeeeek
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Haha Jane funny you should say that about weeing so close to your friend's tent... I was just at V Festival for three days and nights. The toilets were so disgusting that I started collecting cups, put them down my pants and used that to go into. It was much more hygenic (and I had wet wipes) than using the toilets. They were disgusting. Thats my latest secret!! :)

No such thing as a bush wee with 130,000 people around either!

Ha. :) Yeah I had to go to a camp thing and they wanted us to all just pee wherever. I just held my stuffs. First of all there were way too many people and I could wait. If I would have known that was how it was going to be (by the way we didn't have tents) I would have figured out a way to pee into something! It took me the longest time to stop wetting my pants and I'm not even going to say the age. I think the reason it took me so long was because I didn't want to get attention. Like when I was in kindergarten (I think this is where it allll started) there was a bathroom inside of the classroom and so whenever you flushed the toilet everyone would have to turn their head to see who it was. Well that bugged me. I really didn't like it. So once I went it at around the end of the day and just kind of held it and wiggled around hoping the bell will ring so that everyone will be gone. (Unfortunetly another girl had to go but I wasn't in any position to stop holding my bladder and let her go) I think that's where it alllll started with being somewhat anti social.....Stupid toilet....I also developed a habit of hating to sharpen my pencil. It required walking and walking is movement and movement attracts peoples attention. I'm terrified of public speaking as well. And all of this had to start with having to pee? Geesh! That really messed me up! Now I'm good. ^_^ I still don't like having to go do all of those things but if I have to I will because I know that in the long run I'll be sorry if I don't.

Wow... thats a big effect from one toilet! We used to have toilets that had really low walls in primary school and kids used to stand on them and look over the walls. I punched someone in the tummy once cause they'd got all their friends to come look at me on the loo. Very embarassing for a little kid. They learnt their lesson tho. I really wasn't a violent child. Just didn't like injustices going on unpunished!

Yeah I hate when little kids or any one does that. It makes me want to kick their faces. I'm a ghandi kind of girl but if their little heads go under the stall and peer onto me I'd want to at least shove their head away with my foot. I don't know what I'd do if they were seeing from other head though. Scream rape I dunno. :)

When my younger sister was little, like 6 she used to get pocket money, she also had problems with her ears which meant she didn't understand alot of what was going on around her.

I used to get her to swap my copper 1 and 2 pence coins for her £1 coins, all the time, telling her that my copper ones were old coins like in the pirate movies and therfor were worth alot more if she could sell them.

She had huge piles of old copper coins and I had lots of money for sweets....always. I actually used the money I got off her to start my gerbil breeding business and after a while i developed an annoying conscience, and bought her lots of presents to make up for it.