All Cutting, self harm threads - post here #8

This is where posts about cutting belong, either experiences, helpful hints or just sharing...

and please do not disrespect this thread......the cutting I am referring to is self harm, anything other than that will be penalized....Thank you

Anyone need to talk? cuz im like almost always here, or you can always PM me...
just lettin everyone kno...

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I cut.. i have been. then i stopped because i fell inlove and now hes ignoring me and i dont know what i did or said.. so instead of leaving scars ive been punching myself and i have a big bruise on my arm... it does the same thing, takes the pain away for a lil while until everything is ok again. i just feel as if i should just give up on life and say the heck with it and kill myself!

I havent cut in a while but...the scars are there...and im going to the doctors tomorrow for a checkup...is the doctor gonna ask me wht the scars are? im rlly scrared...cuz i dont want her to tell me mom about it or anything.

Wat kind of foctors check up appoint are u having???

^Opps sorry thats suppose to be *doctors

Yearly physical.
Checkup before school.

Thanks monai, but the person that i did go to is ignoring me, it was the guy i was talking about, then there was someone else i could talk to but hes hates me now for some odd reason.. i just dont know what to do n e more

Its kinda hard to get on here all the time. my parents would find out what i write about and then put me in counceling or something. im already on prozac for my depression... sometimes that doesnt even help me any. i try and try and try to be that perfect daughter, friend, sister, girlfriend but im not. i always screw every thing up with every one.

I haven't "cut" for 2 months now, :) its nice, u know not having to hide the fresh scars... plus lucky for me, I don't scar easy, well I scar just they r light ones considering the depth I've gone...
Although sometimes I think - it would just be easier to die than put up with this s***, but in the end I remind myself; there are those who are so much worse off than me, and then it really peeves me when my "friends" threaten to hurt themselves over trivial crap.
I feel like kicking there a**es into a 3rd world country, or maybe just onto the street, with a cardboard box.
I hate people who enjoy the attention of being upset (though they call it being depressed-they don't even know the meaning).
Ah well that's all from me xoxo

Congrats on making 2 months. :)
That's not easy, I know. You should be very proud of yourself.

- Stephanie Lynn .+.

I dont remember when the last time was tht I cut. But Ive been using the elastic band method in place of cutting.

CoNfUsEd AnD gIvInG uP NoT JuSt On YoU BuT lIfE tOo:

no one is perfect. Everyone messes up. I have/do feel the same way, but my boyfriend constantly reminds me that to him I am perfect and I know that is all the matters. Why should you have to make everyone happy your whole life, as long as you are happy that should be all the matters to you family, friends,etc.

Rachel

I have been self harming for about 9 months now but its only recently got pretty bad but my family are always around so i cut my thighs not realising that was bad. now my friends know and they are weird about it. its hard to explain but iv got no one to talk to about it. my friends just have said to me we know you will do it agian so why should we bother trying to get you to stop? i feel hopeless.

Mol:

I think you should explain to them that you want to stop, but you are going to need someone to help you because, clearly, it's not as easy as it looks. Or you should make the first step to talking to a school counselor and/or trusted adult.

I know i should talk to them but its really hard. They don't want to help they just want it to be ignored. Everytime they see a cut they tell me to cover it up before anyone sees. I don't want to tell my family, they would only judge, i just need people i like to talk to. Because no one lese understands what i am going through they just want me to keep it to myself. And now i just sound pathetic.

People like me* and thank you for answering by the way

MOANI:

OK ITS BEEN A WHILE.. SO LIKE NOW. HERE I AM.. CRYING.. AND.. CRYING I MISS JORDAN SO MUCH. HE SAID THAT I CALL TOO MUCH, BUT HES THE ONE WHO IS CALLING ME.. I NEVER CALLED HIM BUT ONCE. I WAS THERE FOR HIM WHEN HE NEEDED ME MOST AND NOW.. NOW HES NOT HERE FOR ME WHEN I NEED HIM MOST. EVERYTHING IS SO HARD...I MISS MY BROTHER.. HES IN THE NAVY AND HE WAS LIKE MY BESTFRIEND AND NOW THERE IS NO ONE THERE FOR ME TO CRY ON..I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO...

I cut for 3 years i also burned myself and scratched myself...i just quit 3 months ago becaue iv fallen in love w/ the love of my life and sumtimes i still feel like i need to but then i think of him and i dont... about 5 months ago i tried committing suicide at school. i dont really regret it but its part of who i am, or a part of me that was unhappy. i am unhappy sumtimes now, even my love cant do anything about that, cutting becomes an opiton sometimes but im trying my hardest to over come it.

I havent cut in a longish time, probably since the beginning of the year i think, but i did do the scratch-thing where you scratch your skin raw, when me and my boyfriend broke up [we got back together in the end]. i was losing him, got kicked out, drug abuse, my mom hated me, so i did the only thing i could.

MONAI:

i under stand what your saying... your not being mean about it. lately ive been a lil bit happier.. i got an upage on my prozac so it helps. ive decided that ive got to move on with my life and forget about Jordan. When the right one comes. ill know it. well thats what im told. lol... thanks for talking to me.. and helping me get through this. i really appreciate it and you cant find ppl like you that are willing to help other people theyve never met... so thank you

I went to my checkup...and i wore a shirt th went over it
....my scars arent low on my arm...theyre almost near my shoulder so i wore a long t-shirt. the doctor didnt check it, and when i got a shot...the nurse did it on the other arm so it was fine. i was so relieved.

I haven't cut in a month i think.. Im kinda proud of myself!!! I kinda miss it but i try really hard not to cut anymore coz my mom saw the scars and asked me what it was, but i lied and said it was my cat and the next day she saw the new mark and asked why i lied and why i did it but i just ran up to my room and she spoke to me for a very long time, then i just tought that im gona stop coz that day i could hear that my mom was disappointed and she said she doesnt want me to hurt myself... Im so happy to have a mom who i can talk to about everything!!! So whenever i feel that im depressed or whenever i have a problem i turn to my mom instead of my razor/knife... She really helped me and one of my friends also helped me with the cutting, he's also on this site.. Edwin..

Well i just thought id share this with you guys... =)
Love ya'll!!! =D

Look let me gues your un happy??
want to die???
feeling worthless??
hate your self??
angry???

i no im going through that an i posted some post's about being depressed a while ago right?
an people where like just be happy! an i was like its not thsat easy!!!

well i just wanna say anyone whose feeling that way comment this post an we will talk because im happy now after attempting suicide an ending up in hospital! i decided like hurts an im going through so a tough time!! my family abandoned me but i decided i aint gonna cry about it anymore!!

i truly believe you!! YES U!! can do what iv done!! with a bit of help so tell me ya storey or how you feel

Well let's just be honest here, hmm? I'm dying to start cutting again and I'm so scared and alone but I seem "fine". So what now? *sigh*

Yep, I'm another grl with everything going for her. If my life is going so woonderful then why do I feel like crap? I know one of my friends are going to read this and going clawing down my throat. *sighs again* So many are disapointed in me, including myself. *rolls eyes*

So yeah.
Anyone have a way to help me? And telling me to suck it up won't help. Not anymore. I've done that for so long. I am ashamed, confused, lonely, nervous, jumpy, and addicted to.... hurt. I don't know.
Anyone wanna help another freak (as in me)?

Why do you have to have physicals? i've never had one in my life

It gets rid of temporary pain

but the scars last a lifetime

just a thought........

Idk i jus do....though ive never been really sick.
i always get a physcial before school starts.

VaNiLLa PaiN:

just so you know, just because you cut, doesnt mean that youre a freak. i know what your going through. life to me just seems like everything is going wrong. today i just found out that my brother is being deployed to iraq. i miss him so much already and me not being able to see him for over 6months is gonna kill me. just recently my heart was broke and im still not over that. i still cry and it still hurt. i started cutting again in January and it does get addicting. i started smoking because it was the only thing that would calm my nerves. then i stopped eating because of jordan and i went almost a month with out eating something with substance. then there was drugs and beating my self and using sex as a reliever. so your not a freak.. i should be the one being called a freak. im trying to quit everything but its too hard and i cut this morning when i found out that my brother is being deployed. what you need to do is get on antidepressants because that helps. if not... talk to someone who knows you and understands you.

i hope i helped a lil bit

x0x0
amanda

I've been cutting for three years, strated with scrathes but then i found the blade and its release. i been stopping and strating during these 3 years and right now i have started again.
I know im not a freak, i know that people deal with things differently and this is my/our way but why is such a taboo? theres nothing really anywhere on SI except the internet, do people want to ignore it and hope it goes away?
I dont think its wrong, i hope in the future sometime its as acceptable as medicine.

Darnit, im so disappointed in myself..I started cutting again.. Coz of my ex.. I cant get over him and today he phoned me and while i was still talking to him he hung up.. For no reason.. I cried for hours...Anyway, so the first thing i saw was my lil pink box with my razor in it.. I grabbed it and went to the bathroom, locked the door and started cutting... After that i felt pretty good, my arm went numb for a while but ya.. I was home alone so i was kinda scared that something might have happend to me but nothing did so thank God.. But what should i do?? What can i do?? Coz idk anymore!! It went gr8 for a while till now... It's so messed up... =(

Relapes are normal, you were upset, hurt, and then you turned to the one thing you know makes it better. you proberly wont do it again if you regret it, try to control it, dont let it control you. Getting over an ex is hard especialy when theres still alot unsaid, if theres anything you want to tell him do it in person, that way you can get closer and he cant hang up on you.
You can try the rubberband method or the ice method if you find yourself in that postion again and really dont want to be there. its better than cutting, less extreme.

Is cutting still the 'in' thing? get over yourselves...injuring oneself does NO good. if it did, you would not be in the Depression & Sadness thread talking about it. You would be frollicking around, singing, "I was sad, but now I'm not! I've found the cure! Cut your skin! Slice it up!" so stop cutting, get over your problems, fix them, or find help.

Wow you really think people cut themself because it's the "in thing"? thats fing stupid what ur saying, i cut because i feel sad inside and the only way to deal with that is feel pain on the outside. if u have cut before u would no how hard it is to stop. if u are going to say stuff like that u might as well not say anything at all. just to tell u what u are telling people about cutting doesn't help, u better hope that one of ur friends doesn't take on cutting because u would probly say something and they would go out and kill themself.

see ya :)

Is cutting still the 'in' thing? get over yourselves...injuring oneself does NO good. if it did, you would not be in the Depression & Sadness thread talking about it. You would be frollicking around, singing, "I was sad, but now I'm not! I've found the cure! Cut your skin! Slice it up!" so stop cutting, get over your problems, fix them, or find help.

Eaysier said than done!!!! You probably dont cut so how would you know how it is huh?? It might be easy to say "get over it" but you're not in our situations so you dont know nothing bout what makes me feel better or not!! Next time you try to give advice, give good and helpful advice.. No offence!!

You know it has been proven that some people when they cut themselves a chemical is released in the brain to stimulate Euphoria. same as with chocolate but way better.

unless you are us, unless your going through our problems you have no right to say ah get over it, everyone deals with things differently and this is our way.

It does do good, you wouldnt get it, even if you have hurt ur self if you can dis it then u dont understand it, its never been an "in thing" where i am, no one even speaks of it, i had no idea what i was doing when i started it just did, only after did i find out that cutting yourself is self harm and heaps of people around the world do it as its their only salvation.

Being online and leaving coments on threads makes us feel less alone, it helps us realise others are in pain too and that things can get better, these people are people whom we can talk to because they understand what its like, its better than talking to people that shoot us down and make us feel worse, with coments like yours, Selene.

I havent cut it...oh idk a few months...and instead i was using the elastic band method, but last nite everything went wrong, and i started to cut again. I scratched my arms and i made my arm bleed. I guess I wasnt over with it yet. It still seems like a medicine to me when everyone is wrong, but I know how bad it is to do it. I know it doesnt solve anything. ugh.

Wow you really think people cut themself because it's the "in thing"? thats fing stupid what ur saying, i cut because i feel sad inside and the only way to deal with that is feel pain on the outside. if u have cut before u would no how hard it is to stop. if u are going to say stuff like that u might as well not say anything at all. just to tell u what u are telling people about cutting doesn't help, u better hope that one of ur friends doesn't take on cutting because u would probly say something and they would go out and kill themself.

First off, I would probably never be friends with someone with so little self-control and dignity. I do not respect anyone that cuts. I don't care about your reasons. It is counter-productive, immature, and idiotic.

You know it has been proven that some people when they cut themselves a chemical is released in the brain to stimulate Euphoria. same as with chocolate but way better.

Secondly, exercise, sex, laughing, even CRYING can make you feel better. for the same reasons as cutting may. but do you know the difference? the things i listed are not physically harmful unless taken out of hand. cutting is physically harmful to any degree--minor or major. you are slicing your skin! are you insane? go see a doctor!

self-mutilation is pathetic, how can you say otherwise? "oh, i'm a strong happy person. you want me to tell you why i am? because i cut up my skin when i'm alone! yippy!" WRONG. You all know cutting is bad, else you would be in a happier forum, as I have said before. If you know it is wrong and counter-productive, learn some self-control, and stop yourself. it really is THAT easy, unless you are actually diagnosed with some sever disorder.

AND, of course it is an 'in' thing. Else you would not be banding together in here, teaming up on me. "This is our way! We do this! You don't understand!" I don't understand because I actually possess self-control? Oh, ok, sure. There must be some secret I'm missing out on, bummer.

You are not helping each other in this thread. Encourage each other to STOP, don't sit around and tell each other, "Oh, its ok. it's not bad to cut. i do it too." You are removing the guilt which should be present.

if you will not listen to me because hey, i don't cut, therefore i am not 'wiser' than you, then fine..if that is your manner of thinking, that's wonderful. keep telling each other i'm the 'bad guy.' may you live to cut another day, right? is that what you want? someone who is in the same hole as yourself, most likely, cannot help you. if you want an example, reread the words and ideas you have been writing. if you want motivation, which you obviously don't, then listen to people like me, who will be HONEST about how ridiculous cutting is

pick yourself up, stand strong and fix the problems you can fix.

Thats very nice of you to care so much for us all, except your not helping the problem your adding to it, dissing us is gonna make us feel worse, feeling worse leads to the darkness of cutting. everyone is aloud their own opinions on the subject, on anything, now that you have said yours and obviously people are going to read it you can stop dissing us and move on. maybe some people will appreciate what you have said.
but i for one dont and i think that you are not helping at all.

Self-mutilation is pathetic, how can you say otherwise? "oh, i'm a strong happy person. you want me to tell you why i am? because i cut up my skin when i'm alone! yippy!" WRONG. You all know cutting is bad, else you would be in a happier forum, as I have said before.

If you are such a 'happy' person then what are you doing here??