All Cutting, self harm threads - post here #8

Yeah you shouldnt click on the saddness threads. But anyways....

Selene is obviously in this thread to help. You honestly think that only sad people visit here? There would be no point if that were the case. This is not just a forum to feel sorry about ourselves, it is a forum to submit personal sad thoughts, expecting sympathetic or helpful replies. Different people have different approaches.

Personally, I agree with the majority of what selene wrote. I'm sorry if that is offensive, but cutting, like all self-abuse or substance abuse, I believe is irresponsible, immature, and all in all--BAD. How could cutting be a good thing? It is self-inflicted, so should I, or those like me, feel sorry for you? You can control the habit. Give it up.

And about suggesting that selene think before she speaks. Ahem, maybe you lot should think before you cut.

Cant you tell that we dont agree with selene and now u? I think its best that you stop posting negitive stuff, especially on such a delicate subject and leave this thread.
stop judging stop treating it like it can be turned off like a switch and stop belittling us.

Now i hope thats the end of the subject of selene and coments simalr.

So hows everyone anyway? does anyone needa talk?

^ Oh, and are you a Moderator now? You sure like to play the role. I believe you are in denial.

I will toss my two cents in wherever, whenever I see fit. Thanks.

Step
1) Recognizing the problem.
2) Wanting to make a change.
3) Forming a plan.
4) Carrying out the plan.

Yay me!!! I stopped again aaand i threw every sharp thing i have away =D im so proud of... ME hahaha!! But i really hope you guys will also do what i did.. You know.. Throw it away ppl!!! It is kinda hard but im happy and im smiling like there not gona be a tomorrow haha!!! You should really try it guys its F.U.N!!!!!!!! My ex better not f*** this up again, but i wont let him ..taaa.. lol.. Uhhhmmmmm... Oh and i have a date tonight woohoo!! hihi.. =P Cant wait.. But newayz.. Stay strong and whenever you have a prob or anything bad happened.. Before you turn to your knife/razor/sharp thingie, plz think about it.. I know its hard and all but ya.. If you need ANYONE to talk to.. Well talk to my friend.. lol.. just joking hahaha, you can talk to me ok!!! I luf you all ok!!!! ;-* Mwha!!! *kiss kiss* oh and *hugs all* =D

Any of you mind sharing what inspires or causes you to cut? Excuses, excuses. Harmful addictions are for the weak of mind.

Hey maybe if you didn't write such stupid things people wouldn't gang up on you. first of all what are u thinking saying something like that in a place like this. u really must be stupid, and saying that u wouldn't be friends with someone who cuts, really u wouldn't know if they cut because most of the people i know hid it. and only people who want attion goes and shows people thier cuts. u are just making ur self look so stupid.

i don't get on that much so thats why it took me awhile to repond.
hey thanks to every one who is standing up for this, and themselfs. i don't have low self-esteem im just really sad all the time and try to be happy but really if u had to go through things that i had to go through u would probly be the same way.

im sure alot of u been through alot too, im not saying anything bad or anything.

this is to selene, i didn't want to start anything with anyone.
well see ya.

Going out of your way to attack an individual and call them stupid, which is against the rules by the way...is stupid. Congratulations.

Thanks Captain Jane, but i don't need you to defend me..you think some internet, depressed teens can offend me?? that's very amusing..i've written all i wanted to write. i can see the ignorant choose to be ignorant.

have a nice day everyone. try not to mutilate yourselves..

No more, its obvious what we all think of you 2, and you both seem to think your better than us, your not at least WE dont judge and hurt others that need help.

I tried the hole chuck it out the first time round, it felt good but now i cant let go, its like apart of me or something and i need them near, not to use them (only when its really bad) but i feel better when i know their in my bag or in my draw.

I totally kno what u mean when u say u feel better knoing they're close... cuz i felt tht way too... but having them near is a temptation, which isnt good considering what the subject is... u kno?

Based solely on this topic, yes, we are better than you.

Yeah i get what you mean about temptation, i had thought that i would feel that all the time except i dont feel it, i do it when i want to, but most of the time just knowing their near helps.

Well its been about 2 months since i last cut myself.. im trying to hold back but im scared that i will just break really soon.... with my parents fighting all the time it just makes me wont to cry.. and scream n take chunks out of my arms with blades ... i wont to see the blood dripping onto the floor... i dont no how to stop it ... ???

Listen to music, write something, read a book, try thinking about something else, call a friend, take a walk. do anything you can not to think about cutting again. itll be hard but jus try and stay strong,

Doesnt work i started cutting again about a week ago and have done it every night during the day i feel like im losing it.At school i have to go to the bathroom 4 times a day just to make it. and when i finally get home and everyone goes to sleep thats when i cut deep and really get relief.Im so scared some 1 is going to find out and hate me for it. but im very careful and only cut on my legs,but im running out of space good thing its almost winter.i just dont know what to do im so lost.

If none of the tecniques help you Cory, maybe you mite wanna talk to someone. If you really wanna stop. Or atleast talk about whats causing you to cut....what evers going on in ur life tht makes you crash an burn like tht. If you arent ready for anyone to know ur cutting at least try to help stop ur other problems. Please, I dont want you to hurt yourself any deeper. Cuz one day you mite go too far. Im always here if you wanna talk, you can jus pm me.

Ok corey and trying to stay strong, you need to find the method that best suits you, cutting is like a drug and going off it cold turkey is extremely hard, if you find yourself need the escape that it offers, try the music thing, i have heavy metal really loud, it helps sometimes, you could also try writing or just scribbling on the page. Theres also destroying old things you dont want, like ripping up a teddy or smashing something, or recking a book.
You can also try red ink on your skin, going where a cut would, just dont go over any open skin. theres also the rubber band method but i dont recommend that, you can also try squeezing a piece of ice, that could help, leaves no scars either, and the cold really hurts.
if you want to try and stop those methods can help, and what was said earlier (the walks, call a friend etc) also try talking the school councilor or a trusted friend. I know thats what everyone says and its not easy to at all to tell someone, but maybe if you "accidentally" let someone see then they might ask and you can have someone to talk to. There is a way out and it can get better but you've gotta try.

Your family fighting all the time, thats not your fault, and its not your problem, you are the most important person, you need to start putting yourself first. If you feel like your about to break down and really need a cut, come online and talk to us, leave a post telling us exactly whats up and it could actually help, expressing yourself and all does help.

Corey, no one will hate you if they find out, people might get angry, be mean, be cautious around you that kinda stuff but thats coz they dont understand, they dont know what to do, or what your going through. But just remember that there are people that care about you and there people like me that know exactly what your going through and are happy to help/ listen.

Yeah but none of those work i had a little success with the rubberband. but ive been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder gad and recurent severe dep. but on the 1 hand cutting helps soo much i dont even know if i want to stop on the other im scarred of exposure cause ill be shunned by all my loved ones soooo i dont know.

Ive also started burning which offeres even better relief and the other day i got so frustrated i punched myself in the face a bunch of times.and ended up ith the whole side of my face swollen. i told everyone i got into a fight with a guy named newt.lol

For some cutting is the "in" thing or the "attention" thing, but you cannot generalize everyone into one group. Different people cut for different reasons and it is not always as cut and dry as just stopping, but you do atleast have to want to stop and I was successful for over 2 years, yesterday however wasa bit of a set back. ANyone who has had real experience with cutters, understand that like addiction you can fall off the wagon, it depends on your triggers and your ability to control your urges. Giving in does not make us pathetic or weak, it just makes us human because no one is perfect. Some of us actually make an effort to try and help not only ourselves but others. It is much easier to talk to people than at them, some just don't get that. Everyone can have their opinion but unless you have felt that release you still don't understand.

I feel so fake, i've been giving advice i dont even follow myself. I think you sould know the truth, thats why i first posted on this thread anyway, but it turned into another thing to keep myself protected from, to project a fake me.
This is the third time i have relapsed and i dont want to try to stop anymore, im tired of feeling this way and i dont care anymore, I dont want to stop anymore. I know im addicted to it but i dont care, i dont want to feel this way and it helps so i do it.
I use music to calm me down until i can get away and do it, i bite my lip or dig my nails into my skin when ever theres people around and i need that release, but nothing can substitute that feeling when i get the blade. I tired last time the rubber band thing, split my skin open, i have a scar, tried the ice thing didnt work for me, writing helped liked music does, keeps it down until im alone.
Im such a hypercrit, trying to help others kick the habbit when im still doing it myself.
Im sorry. Im pathetic.

For some cutting is the "in" thing or the "attention" thing, but you cannot generalize everyone into one group.
^ Thank you for accepting the truth and being civil.

Everyone can have their opinion but unless you have felt that release you still don't understand.
^ I understand your reasons for cutting, but I also understand your reasons for not cutting. The reasons for not cutting make much more sense. Does my not being able to understand prevent me from telling a cutter that cutting is stupid? No. My instinct tells me that cutting is stupid. Humans have it set in their brains to strive to survive, not to commit suicide. You are disobeying your most basic human need, by inflicting self injury.

What do you think of smoking cigarettes? It's similar in many ways.

Ah but sometimes cutting is what prevents one from taking their own life. There are lots of times I have cut because I wanted to do something far worse. Like you said it is the instinct to survive, sometimes cutting is how we survive, I am not saying that makes cutting good or okay, it is just fact. We as a race harm ourselves and everything around us, everyday. If our basic instinct is to survive, why are we killing ourselves and our planet? Not everything is cut and dry. I started cutting when I was 12. No one I knew cut and I always did a good job of never getting caught. No one knew I was a cutter until I was about 18 and I had marks I could not hide. JUst like smoking, it is an addiction and a habit. Telling someone how wrong or immoral they are is not going to make them stop smoking, so why then would it make someone stop cutting? Yeah sometimes we have to be harsh or brutally honest, but again how it is taken depends on who is speaking or who they are speaking to.

I agree qithout cutting i would have killed myselp long ago.So you can say what you want about not developing coping skilles and blah blah blah but im still alive with cutting i was able to make it through a year in baghcad without killing myself

Does anyone have a good way to approach some one about this? I want to get prof. help but am to scared of what people will think. if you have n e suggestions i would love to hear them.

You don't have to tell people what you are going to counselling for, that is between you and your therapist. Talk to your family doc or go through the phone book, I did both. the first 2 I went to see were not very helpful, but the 3rd was, you won't always find the right person on your first try, but you never know until you go, how helpful it is going to be.

Thanks ill try that. But did it help you any?

Yeah it helped alot when I found the right person, it was like having a safe place I could go and talk about anything with no worries of feeling like she was judging and not helping me. My first 2 did not feel like that at all.

Yeah i tryed it before in the army but to them your just a number. So i've never really been able to find some 1 to talk to yet. And u know like really talk to them.

I had found someone to talk to, but i was still so scared of myself inside and all the feelings i was suppressing that the hole time we talked i had this stupid smile on my face and was rather cherry about it all, now i look back it was rather weird, it was like the hole time we spoke i was on another plain of reality, trying to ignore everything that was happening. we don't talk anymore, he thinks im all better, i regret never talking to him properly. i miss knowing that hes there. i wish i had finally let my stupid walls down and told him everything, but its easy to say that now, but I've never let anyone in, never been like that around anyone and i don't think i ever will.
if help is what you want then use the phone book and internet phone book to find prof. help.

Im losing my mind

I just flipped out so bad. i cannt stop screaming and breaking things.

My dad had to leave it got so bad and i thought he called the cops but he didnt.

Cory? i dont know what to say, sometimes screaming and trashing stuff helps to release too. are you ok?

Yes i'm fine.I just had a bad moment there but i've never been better.lol.

Yup everything is fine i just got a little anxious but im ok.I tried to quit but let's just say i'm not a quitter. thats positive right?And Meds from Placebo is a good song.Just a recomendation.

Why'd you get anxious? not being a quitter is a positive but maybe not in this situation (im such a hypercrit)

Lol. And ive got alot of stress in my life and well..... lets just say that. and theres a lot of very tragic experiences that haunt my dreams, so i dont get alot of sleep.and i take computer operations, and was taking 2 forms of martial arts before about a 2 weeks ago...white uniforms...and its hypocrite*

When i get really sad itry to remind myself that the past was a long time ago and the future is in like 2 seconds.Obviosly this has its faults.lol