I screwed up...

I did the worst thing... i cheated... i took my ex for granted... and now all i do is... well quite frankly, nothing... i just sit and remeber stuff... i wrote a couple poems... i wrote a song for her too... but now i think she may have moved on... and it kills me inside... all i can do is think of her... and that kills me too... the pain is paralyzing... seriously... i kno there will be those of you who think of me as scum for what i did... but i would never do it again... even then you have every right to think that... but anyway... my life is meaningless without her... i walk around my house just waiting by my phone to see if she'll call... (we still talk a little) these are only a few of my feelinds there are just so many that about half of them are lost in the translation...
WHAT DO I DO?
please don't say move on because i know this girl is the only one for me... i couldn't marry anyone else... weird i know... but thats how it is....

Bob, what forum would you recommend he put this thread under? Because I honestly don't know. I think it suits the Romance section best.

I have written notes to her... about this... if i hadn't done all the easy stuff and obvious stuff i wouldn't be here yet sharing this with the world...

Why did you cheat on her?

Because i am a fool... i took for granted everything we had...

Thanks that was helpful...

It is very hard to forgive something so hurtful. When you love someone, and they love you in return, there should be no cheating involved. When you think you have found love, someone tells you they love you, and then end up cheating on you...What is there left to believe? I know if someone who swore they loved me, cheated on me, I would take them for an untrustworthy liar. However, people forgive people for terrible things, every day. You may need to try and move on with your life, BUT, moving on never means no going back. It takes time for people to change, and even if you feel that you have already changed and realized your mistakes, that can be hard to believe for other people. If you are still in love with her after a while, I'm not sure how long, perhaps she will have taken the time to forgive you.

Everyone forgives, if permitted enough time.

I'm just surpised that she is giving you the time of day... and talking with you damn that girl must really love you but like the girl said before me... trust is going to become hard for her around you... so you have to give time and i wouldn't be suprised if she does move on without out in her life.... cheating i say is lying and lying is just a way of showing your true feelings of not caring....

Ask first for forgiveness, Accept her reply, be it yes or no, you have accepted responsibility for your action. If her answer is yes, be better than you were before. If you are Genuine as you Plea, you can win her Trust back, but not without action. That my Friend is the Test, she will never forget, although she has forgiven you. You will always be reminded and harshly. It is a tough road to follow.
We all are liars, cheats, thieves, etc, Strive too be better and you may win her Love back. Blessings

By being unforgivable, The deed , Festers in your heart.
Never say never
for one day
you become
the cheater

"No I won't"
"No I won't"

Yes You Will
You are Human
With Flaws

Ok i dont wanna seem like a b**** but your a d***h***
honestly if you made such a big mistake then why'd you do it. but atleast you can admit you cheated finding out any other way is really bad i preffer to here it from my bf than anyone else